Distancing From Levi’s Harassing Calls – Mad Chaos: August 8, 2004
Diary entry for August 8, 2004. A Day Deprived Of Pleasure, Constantly Interrupted, Levi Continues To Call, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Keeping A Slim Day Through Inertia – Mad Chaos: August 3, 2004
Diary entry for August 3, 2004. Death In The Aviary, Showing No Weakness, Brush Techniques, Passing Time, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Sloven In The Realms Of Apathy – Mad Chaos: August 2, 2004
Diary entry for August 2, 2004. A Disoriented Trip To The Shops, Keeping A Low Profile, Date With The Memoir, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Battle To Save The Memoir – Mad Chaos: July 25, 2004
Diary entry for July 25, 2004. The Depression Debt, Chat On MSN Messenger, So Close To Surrender, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Hanging Out With Weston – Mad Chaos: July 23, 2004
Diary entry for July 23, 2004. Volume Of Invention, Louise Invites Me Over, MSN Messenger Hacks, Weston, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Walk That Inspired Creativity – Mad Chaos: July 16, 2004
Second diary entry for July 16, 2004. Bump Into Brother, Quirks In The Mall, What Women Attract Me, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A New Era Of The Hare – Mad Chaos: July 16, 2004
Diary entry for July 16, 2004. A Marathon Writing Session, Tightening The Belt, Transition From Rabbit To Hare, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Constructing An Optimism Chamber – Mad Chaos: July 11, 2004
Diary entry for July 11, 2004. Writing The Memoir In My Dreams, Momentum Through Chores, Praetorians On PC, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Overcoming Social-Induced Apathy – Mad Chaos: July 5, 2004
Diary entry for July 5, 2004. Abstained From Zyprexa, Matchmaker Profiles, Mental Health, Focus On Exercise, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Cholecystokinin Links To Anxiety-Panic Disorder – Mad Chaos: July 3, 2004
Diary entry for July 3, 2004. Biorhythm Cycles, Research Nutrition, Norepinephrine, Mumbles Visits, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Self-Diagnosis Of Anxiety & Panic Disorder – Mad Chaos: July 1, 2004
Diary entry for July 1, 2004. Withdrawal From Zyprexa, Schizophrenia Label, The Root Of My Anxiety, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Managed Withdrawal From Olanzapine Medication – Mad Chaos: June 29, 2004
Diary entry for June 29, 2004. Ceasing To Enjoy Life, Counselor, Lali Wants A Fling, Cursed Memoirs, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Assembling The Backyard Roof – Mad Chaos: June 18, 2004
Diary entry for June 18, 2004. Intense Exercise, Centrelink, Backyard Roof Assembly, Study Alprazolam, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Secrets To Weight Loss – Mad Chaos: May 29, 2004
Third diary entry for May 29, 2004. A Torturing Exercise Session, Disillusioned With Yo-Yo Effect, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Penning A Letter To Lyssa – Mad Chaos: May 22, 2004
Diary entry for May 22, 2004. Letter To Lyssa, Print Mad Chaos Book, Guarana Drink Diet, Ten Resolutions, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Productive Proofreading Spell – Mad Chaos: May 11, 2004
Diary entry for May 11, 2004. Proofreading The Diary, Friends Contribute Stories, Centrelink Psychologist, Alprazolam, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Disciplined Month Of Socials – Mad Chaos: October 19, 2003
Diary entry for October 19, 2003. The Shadow Of The Writer, Visit Imad, Hang Out With Tatton & Shawn, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
On Top Of My Anxieties – Mad Chaos: June 25, 2003
Diary entry for June 25, 2003. On The Outside Of Anxieties, Creating Diary Era Titles, Published Books, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Living With A Sense Of Optimism – Mad Chaos: June 11, 2003
Diary entry for June 11, 2003. A Wholesome Day Of Highs, Revising The Diary Histories, Optimistic Day, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Motorola Mobile Phone Purchased – Mad Chaos: June 11, 2003
Diary entry for June 8, 2003. A Planned Day In Town, Buy A Mobile Phone, Many Doors Open, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Brush With Lyssa Forces Reevaluation – Mad Chaos: June 8, 2003
Diary entry for June 8, 2003. Pushed To Write, Antisocial Weekend, Finances, A Brush With Lyssa, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Confronting My Fear Of Rejection – Mad Chaos: June 4, 2003
Diary entry for June 4, 2003. Bump Into Yazmin In Supermarket, Courage To Make A Connection, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Walk Dark Corridors Alone – Mad Chaos: June 2, 2003
Diary entry for June 2, 2003. Lyssa Leaves A Hole, In Control Of My Mind, Reflecting On Three Wasted Years, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Revelation Of Boredom – Mad Chaos: June 1, 2003
Second diary entry for June 1, 2003. Inundated By Internal Escapes, Goal To Focus On Employment, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Steadily Industrializing Mind – Mad Chaos: June 1, 2003
First diary entry for June 1, 2003. Peak Consciousness Of The Writer, Hard To Move On, Diary Revisions, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Diary Histories Revision Resumes – Mad Chaos: May 21, 2003
Diary entry for May 21, 2003. Reasons To Wake Up, Revise The Diary, New Gym Schedule, Job Search, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Routines To Counter My Anxieties – Mad Chaos: May 20, 2003
Diary entry for May 20, 2003. A Fun Day Grocery Shopping, Break Through Morning Anxieties, Shopping, Gym, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Manga Band Sessions – Mad Chaos: May 19, 2003
Diary entry for May 19, 2003. Mentally Disciplined Fortnight, Paying Down Debts, Diary Editorial Process, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Diary Eras Editorial Project – Mad Chaos: May 18, 2003
Diary entry for May 18, 2003. A Busy Two Weeks, Socials, Gym, Editorial Project Commences, Musical Jam, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Diagnosed With Mild Schizophrenia – Mad Chaos: April 30, 2003
Diary entry for April 30, 2003. See Jewell, Feeling Positive, See Psychiatrist, Replace Antidepressant Medication, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Importance Of Values – Mad Chaos: April 26, 2003
Diary entry for April 26, 2003. A Measure Of Identity, Nearly Debt-Free, Skipping Medication, Spiting Dad, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Root Cause Of My Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 23, 2003
Diary entry for April 23, 2003. Anxiety Improves, Going At My Own Pace, Researching Historical Anxiety, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Shifting Punishment Between Siblings – Mad Chaos: April 20, 2003
Diary entry for April 20, 2003. Loathing Dad, Reliving Childhood Traumas, My Pattern Of Anxieties, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
My Brother’s Return Triggers Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 15, 2003
Diary entry for April 15, 2003. Coming To Terms With Change, Sharing Space With My Anxiety, Darker Place, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Taking Baby Steps With Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 8, 2003
Diary entry for April 8, 2003. Battle With Depression, Baby Steps With Anxiety, Social Practice, Sexually Frustrated, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Situational Isotopes Of Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 7, 2003
Diary entry for April 7, 2003. Cause Of Anxieties, Root Of My Paranoia, How I Find Solace, Visit An Anxiety Clinic, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Cleaning Up My Life – Mad Chaos: April 4, 2003
Diary entry for April 4, 2003. Fitness Goal, Withdrawal Symptoms, Regulated Sleep, New Fridge, Positive Routines, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The First Cardinal Sin – Mad Chaos: March 11, 2003
Diary entry for March 11, 2003. Sydney Hotel Room, Unspeakable Mistake, Emotional Breakdown, Visit Doctor, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Path Into Darkness – Mad Chaos: March 3, 2003
Diary entry for March 3, 2003. How Anxiety Enveloped Me, Matryoshka Dolls Analogy, So Unhappy At Home, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A History Of School Years – Mad Chaos: February 4, 2003
Diary entry for February 4, 2003. Lack Of Identity, First Day At School, Fights, Bullies, Teen Angst, Passion, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Evolution Of My Anxiety – Mad Chaos: January 30, 2003
Diary entry for January 30, 2003. Study The Rise Of Anxiety, Major Events, Uneducated About Mental Health, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Overcoming A Fear Of Helplessness – Mad Chaos: January 16, 2003
Diary entry for January 16, 2003. Improvement In Chronic Insomnia, No Longer Feeling Helpless, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Going Three Days Without Anxiety – Mad Chaos: January 14, 2003
Second dairy entry for January 14, 2003. Practicing Sanity At Work, Learn To Crack Jokes, Kyra Flirts, Gym, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Learning Patience With Good Choices – Mad Chaos: January 14, 2003
First diary entry for January 15, 2003. Calmed By Socials, Battling Anxiety, Making Positive Choices, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
What My Tarot Cards Revealed – Mad Chaos: January 13, 2003
Diary entry for January 13, 2003. Reading My Tarot Cards, The Imposition Of Limitations, Work For The Dole, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Past The Point Of No Return – Mad Chaos: January 9, 2003
Diary entry for January 9, 2003. Obstacles Posed By Life, Recording Goals, Reading Back On The Lost Years, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Imad Breaks Our Friendship’s Impasse – Mad Chaos: January 8, 2003
Diary entry for January 8, 2003. New Years Eve At Byron Bay, Living In Two Worlds, Imad Visits, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Mad Chaos: Monday, May 13, 2002
There are about three to four hours before my planned leave to head up and see Imad this afternoon, and while a surmounting force of…
Coming To Understand My Social Anxiety – Mad Chaos: March 15, 2002
Diary entry for March 15, 2002. My Social Anxiety Disorder, Centrelink Visit, Saucy Online Chats, Gaming, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Diary Of A Mad Chaos: Thursday, January 24, 2002
Woozy From Fatty Food Oh, my head gives me revision of how woozy it felt some weeks back after eating fatty meats, and while only…
Jett Passes A Message Onto Jewell – Mad Chaos: December 9, 2001
Diary entry for December 9, 2001. Jett Speaks To Jewell, Lingering Feelings, Sonnets, Jewell’s Email, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Routines To Cope With Depression – Mad Chaos: October 3, 2001
Diary entry for October 3, 2001. Writing Again, North Wollongong Beach, Gym, Coping With Life, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Losing Control In Wet Weather – Mad Chaos: October 2, 2001
Second diary entry for October 2, 2001. Pointless Activities, Invited To Beach, Cruise, Losing Control Of My Car, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Feeling Unnecessarily Impotent In Life – Mad Chaos: October 2, 2001
First diary entry for October 2, 2001. Basketball & Weed With Tyler, Going To War, Smug Blonde, Shawn’s Pad, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The World Trade Centre Terrorist Attack – Mad Chaos: September 13, 2001
Diary entry for September 13, 2001. Who Is Osama Bin Laden, Terrorism, Saddam Hussein, Middle Eastern Peace, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
My Life Through Three Photo Albums – Mad Chaos: September 10, 2001
Diary entry for September 10, 2001. Remembering Nikita, Three Photo Albums, Maturing Through Experience, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Lost My Limited Tenure Job Contract – Mad Chaos: August 31, 2001
Diary entry for August 31, 2001. Coles Myer Job, Car Registration, Taronga Zoo, Friends, Gym, Politics, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Tampa Ship Forces Australia To Respond – Mad Chaos: August 30, 2001
Diary entry for August 30, 2001. Tampa Ship Anchored Off Christmas Island, Politics, Government Response, War Games, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Random Musings Of The Recluse – Mad Chaos: August 5, 2001
Diary entry for August 5, 2001. Gravity In Sports, Individual Freedom, Right State Of Mind, Happiness, God’s Boundary, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Eve Straightens Me Out – Mad Chaos: August 3, 2001
Diary entry for August 3, 2001. Personality Types, Forming Relationships, Internet Chat With The Eve, Out Of A Hole, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
How Rebellion Leads To Personal Growth – Mad Chaos: August 1, 2001
Diary entry for August 1, 2001. New Rap Group, History Of Friendships, Keeping It Real, The Heart Of Rebellion, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Losing A Part Of Myself In Scarlett – Mad Chaos: Friday, July 20, 2001
Diary entry for July 20, 2001. Online Chat With Scarlett, Dealing With Loss, Insecurity, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – World’s Largest Online Diary
The Big Bang Theory Of Cosmic Magnetism – Mad Chaos: July 4, 2001
Diary entry for July 4, 2001. The Big Bang, Cosmic Magnetism, An Atom’s Life Span, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – World’s Largest Online Diary
Discuss Social Anxiety Self-Diagnosis With Doctor – Mad Chaos: June 27, 2001
Diary entry for June 27, 2001. The Cool, Chest X-Rays, Social Anxiety, Medicated Puffer, Work At Coles, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Effect Of Marijuana On My Self-Esteem – Mad Chaos: June 26, 2001
Diary entry for June 26, 2001. Kicking Marijuana Habit, Repair Car, Sexual Haircut, New Mobile Phone Laws, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Learning To Stand On My Own Two Feet – Mad Chaos: June 24, 2001
Diary entry for June 24, 2001. Purchasing A Toyota Corona, Visit Imad In Kentlyn, Diagnose My Coughing, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Finding A Friend To Visit Car Yards With – Mad Chaos: June 23, 2001
Diary entry for June 23, 2001. Friends As The Backbone Of Confidence, Look To Buy A Used Car, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Theory Of Time Travel & Black Holes – Mad Chaos: June 20, 2001
Diary entry for June 20, 2001. Cause For Extreme Anxiety, Theories On Ageing, Time Travel & Black Holes, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Evolution Of Human Logistics Theory – Mad Chaos: June 6, 2001
Diary entry for June 6, 2001. Evolution Of Expression, Human Creativeness, Mental Telepathy, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Frolic With Scarlett In The Botanic Gardens – Mad Chaos: March 7, 2001
Diary entry for March 7, 2001. Tyler’s Bong Gift, Sex In Botanic Gardens With Scarlett, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – World’s Largest Online Diary
The Writer Is Burnt Out – Mad Chaos: February 20, 2001
Diary entry for February 20, 2001. Burnout, Finding Root Causes, Hope For Resolve, Scarlett The Death Knell, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Succumbing To Massage Parlors – Mad Chaos: February 12, 2001
Diary entry for February 12, 2001. Scorching Summer, Massage Turns Into Unprotected Sex, The Dice Man Novel, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Computer Crashes That Murder The Writer – Mad Chaos: February 9, 2001
Diary entry for February 9, 2001. Constant Computer Crashes, Burnout Looming, The Writer Fades Away, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary.
Serving The Wasteland – Mad Chaos: February 3, 2001
Diary entry for February 3, 2001. Rendered Unproductive, My Own Personal Doomsday, Chat With Azalea, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Marijuana, A Self-Destructive Catharsis – Mad Chaos: January 31, 2001
Diary entry for January 31, 2001. Smoke Marijuana, A Long Literary Drought, Five Days Of Backlog To Write, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Crucible Fabric Of The Memoirs – Mad Chaos: January 29, 2001
Diary entry for January 29, 2001. Red Flags Towards Recession, Inevitable Burnout, One Final Push, Biorhythms, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Gruelling War On Backlog – Mad Chaos: January 28, 2001
Diary entry for January 28, 2001. The Writer Digs Deep, Domain Name Delegation Task, Website, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Suffering A Stress Attack – Mad Chaos: January 27, 2001
Diary entry for January 27, 2001. Neighborhood Noise, Play Loud Music, Upload Content To My Website, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Smoking Marijuana To Procrastinate – Mad Chaos: January 26, 2001
Diary entry for January 26, 2001. Domain Name Registration, Get Stoned, The Fear Of Doing Nothing, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Birthday Celebration With The Writer – Mad Chaos: January 18, 2001
Diary entry for January 19, 2001. A Bad Stretch, Burden Of Backlog, Impeded Progress, Writing Strategies, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Mad Chaos: Tuesday, June 6, 2000
The time now is 5:15am. I came to write in my diary. Dreams are becoming a regular occurrence and thankfully, they are remembered with more…
Reflecting On The Lost Years Era – Mad Chaos: April 26, 2000
Diary entry for April 26, 2000. Studying The Lost Years, Reliving The Twists, Two Loves, Memoir Work, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Growing In Confidence With Iseul – Mad Chaos: November 10, 1999
Third diary entry for November 10, 1999. Iseul Cancels Date, Learn Korean, Suggest Sleepover, Naked Jokes, Alec Phones, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
The Red Polo Neck Sweater Girl – Mad Chaos: November 10, 1999
Second Diary entry for November 10, 1999. Breaking The Ice, A Crowded Mind Of What Ifs, Catch Alec’s Bus Home, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
Goal To Expand The Memoirs Online – Mad Chaos: November 10, 1999
First diary entry for November 10, 1999. Pranking Hot Girls, Fire Warden Nomination, HIH Win Pops, Kylie Minogue, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
HIH Insurance Provides Free Cab Charges – Mad Chaos: June 25, 1999
Second diary entry for June 25, 1999. Free Cab Charges, Shopping, Hound Dog, Kangaroo Valley, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary.
HIH Insurance & Lunch With Keith – Mad Chaos: June 25, 1999
First diary entry for June 25, 1999. Train Fatality, Seeing Sama, HIH Insurance, Lunch With Keith, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary.
The Toll Of Work With HIH Insurance And Backlog On The Diary
Second diary entry for May 19, 1999, Bình’s Bakery Shop, Philosophy, Keith Secures Job, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – World’s Longest Online Diary
Securing An Office Administration Job With HIH Insurance
Diary entry for May 19, 1999, secure a job with HIH Insurance, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – World’s Longest Online Diary
Connecting At The Interview With HIH Insurance – Monday, May 18, 1999 May 18, 1999
It’s official. I now have myself a full-time job with HIH Insurance and a chance to redeem my pride and regain my riches. So far…
The Job Interview With HIH Insurance In Sydney – May 18, 1999
Preparing For The HIH Insurance Job Interview From Macarthur Square we headed to my house where I was dropped off at a forlorn population. Dressing…
Securing A Job Interview With HIH Insurance – May 18, 1999
These days are beginning to gain momentum, my desires are flaming with passion and these dreams are again conceiving to stir. There has been much…
Landing An Interview With HIH Insurance – Monday, May 17, 1999
My bids to find a job might finally have come to an awarding end. With it, my perception of Temping Agencies being uncaring has changed over…
Mad Chaos: Monday, May 17, 1999
Does Phoenix Like Bình Within the time that we spent back in Keith’s house, he chatted to Bình twice on the phone. Word was that Bình wanted to…
Mad Chaos: Monday, May 17, 1999
The Neighbor’s Dispute There was a guy just at my door a couple of minutes ago chasing a kid down the street who threw rocks…
A Neglected Racer and a Hung-Up Call (Part 5) – Mad Chaos: April 26, 1999
Fresh pay brings new plans, from getting online to rebuilding a racing bike. The month ends with a call to Lyssa that goes badly wrong.
Eavesdropping on Keith and Tamsen (Part 4) – Mad Chaos: April 26, 1999
Keith and Shawn turn up unannounced, and an hour-long phone fight with Tamsen follows. A Subway visit and a Commodore race wind up a long Sunday night.
Shut Up and Just Drive (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 26, 1999
Ralf bans bopping in the back seat, and the ride home blows up into a shouting match. Nobody speaks when the car finally stops outside Shawn’s house.
Stage One and a Leaf in the Keyhole (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 26, 1999
Four mates head to a tiny pub nightclub, and the night quickly falls flat. Dancing, a lovely blonde and a stubborn Ralf lead to a leaf in a boot lock and a cold wait.
Trading Insults With Ralf by Phone (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 26, 1999
The month is nearly over and the diarist ponders fortune and misfortune. Then a bored Saturday morning turns into a string of phone calls and a plan to hit a nightclub.
Lying to Lyssa About Payday – Mad Chaos: April 24, 1999
After a long sleep, Lyssa rings at an odd hour and asks if the diarist has been paid. A white lie ends the call, and a tired look back at April follows.
Chasing Lyssa Through an Olympic Dream (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 23, 1999
Tired eyes and a broken sleep routine lead into last night’s dream. A train ride, a stranger on Lyssa’s shoulder and a frantic run through the carriages follow.
A Leather Jacket and an Unpaid Loan (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 23, 1999
With a week left in April, an overnight data marathon is interrupted by Lyssa ringing about money again and again. Her new leather jacket is the problem.
Three Years of Diary and a Dodgy Birthday – Mad Chaos: April 22, 1999
Spell-checking the early diary entries shows how much the writing has changed in three years. Then comes a birthday mix-up and a heavy look at the news.
Explaining My Sonnet About a Deceiving View (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 21, 1999
The long deferred sonnet annotation finally arrives. A landscape stands in for a person, and every step closer shows another flaw.
Cola, Cards and Blocking the Toilet Door (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 21, 1999
A blank mind and a sleeping problem give way to a late visit from Keith and Shawn. A long card game ends with pot plants, gas containers and a flying cup of cola.
A Laptop Dream and a Forgotten Anniversary (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 20, 1999
Another very late wake-up leads to money plans, a laptop wish and a phone call with a job tip. Tomorrow should have been an anniversary, but nobody is planning one.
Sneaking Into The Matrix With Keith and Shawn (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 20, 1999
Woken at two in the afternoon by a knock at the door, a night of sleep turns into a cinema mission. The ticket collectors are standing guard, and the boys have a plan.
Planning a Graph of My Whole Diary (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 18, 1999
After a good sleep, a few loose bits of news and a new project begin to take shape. Every month of the diary is about to be turned into data.
Keeping Lyssa Awake on the Phone (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 18, 1999
A quiet Saturday night turns to cards at Subway and a sour mood. Then the phone rings in the early hours with someone who says she only wants to talk.
An All-Nighter of Madden With Shawn (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 18, 1999
A brain in meltdown, an awkward call about a lost job and a night of Madden that turns into a long, giggly all-nighter. Even the eye colour changes.
Styrofoam Beads and Misfortune’s Pond – Mad Chaos: April 17, 1999
Back to poetry after a chaotic week, the diarist explains the month’s title, charts the stages of his diary and ends a rainy night teasing Keith.
Words on a Stick in the Fig Tree (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 15, 1999
Having walked out on the job, the diarist quits by phone, hunts for a pen, leaves a message on a stick in the old fig tree and rides home with Lyssa.
Windows 3.1 and a Brain-Draining Day (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 15, 1999
With bus money raided from his dad’s car, the diarist finally starts his first job in years, struggles with old software and walks back across the bridge at lunch.
Staring Women and a Broken Chain (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 15, 1999
Out of work again, the diarist builds theories about jobs that feel like hobbies, why women stare, a broken chain as fate, and the laptop he wants to buy.
Calamari Rings and a Cold Goodbye (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 13, 1999
After a squatter takes over the fig tree, lunch with Lyssa turns awkward, a calamari ring goes down the wrong way, and a loan call confirms the distance between them.
Lost in Pyrmont With Murphy’s Law (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 13, 1999
A good night’s sleep promises a smooth start to a temping job, until one wrong turn sends the day into a long, sweaty hunt for an address and a working phone.
A Haircut and a Yellow Monitor (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 12, 1999
A day of small errands in Campbelltown ends with sit-ups, a chatty hairdresser and a monitor that has had enough.
A Smoke Detector and a Useless Certificate (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 12, 1999
Trying to sleep early goes badly, a chirping noise turns out to be a smoke detector, and Keith delivers a certificate nobody could trust.
Waiting Hours for Itha (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 11, 1999
The group waits for a 3:30 a.m. show that never lives up to its billing, then drives home through the early morning.
Unbuttoning My Shirt for a Bum (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 11, 1999
Jett’s birthday night drags through a letdown at Eros Theatre, a nightclub door and a parking spot defended by a line of grinning mates.
Boiled Eggs and a Fading Romance (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 11, 1999
A sleepless night ends in a late waking, coloured boiled eggs for breakfast and some blunt thoughts about Lyssa.
Olive Oil and Overpriced Burgers (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 10, 1999
A train trip to the City for a birthday dinner ends with expensive burgers, milk at three dollars a cup and a very dramatic Ralf.
A Broken Chain and a Dream Girl (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 10, 1999
A link in the golden chain breaks, a dream about two girls plays out, and a temping agency rings with a job offer.
Five Hours on a Sonnet About a View (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 8, 1999
The varlets, the gallows and the crumbling walls get explained, then a new sonnet about a beautiful and deceiving view takes shape.
Meeting Clifton and His Baseball Bat (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 8, 1999
A car chase over headlights, a man with a bat and a call from Lyssa that leaves no feelings at all.
A Mystery Call and Pretending to Be Rupert (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 8, 1999
A call from two girls ends with a fake voice and a lot of shouting, before a quiet night of cards and ice-cream.
Explaining a Sonnet and Writing Another (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 7, 1999
The author explains his latest sonnet quatrain by quatrain, then rushes a new one onto the page before sleep.
A Quiet Visit From Simon Mid-Sonnet (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 7, 1999
A slow Wednesday of puns, bills and a half-finished sonnet, interrupted by a whispered hello at the door.
Phoenix Jokes and Armpit Headlocks (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 6, 1999
Keith throws a tantrum, Simon throws the cards, and the night ends in headlocks and gossip on the drive home.
Tatton Storms Off Over Black Bitch (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 6, 1999
A Monday that starts at 3:00 p.m. ends up at Subway with cards, a missing entry box and a very loud exit.
Explaining a Sonnet About Sheep and Lions (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 5, 1999
Puns on wine and whining, lions among sheep and a Lord who laughs at his attacker, followed by the next sonnet.
Mum Killed in Kosovo, Apparently (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 5, 1999
A beer table in the basement leads to a chatty stranger, a tall tale about a war and a late night at Subway.
Dressed Up With Nowhere to Go (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 5, 1999
Ralf rings twice, the plan changes in five minutes, and a dressed-up night out turns into pokies, railings and feeling out of place.
Credit Card Trouble and Lyssa’s Silence (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: April 4, 1999
A sleepless dawn, a credit card that is short by a few dollars and a week without a call from Lyssa.
Two Wheels Round a Roundabout (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 4, 1999
Keith finds a way to skim a few more coins, Simon takes a roundabout on two wheels, and the cards at Subway run until dawn.
Beaten by a Football Turnstile (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 4, 1999
My first ever football game started with a ticket I could not feed through the turnstile and ended with me cheering alone for Brisbane among Bulldogs fans.
Writing a Sonnet Through to Morning – Mad Chaos: April 3, 1999
After a Broncos game and a fixed chain, sleep refuses to come, so a sonnet gets written from dawn to late morning before Ralf rings about a night out.
Fainting in the Bank Queue (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: April 1, 1999
A necklace repair run through Campbelltown turns into a bank queue drama, an awkward roadside chat with Imad and a full gym routine.
Lyssa, a Pond and Five Silent Nights (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: April 1, 1999
A new month brings hope like fresh tire tread, a snapped chain and a stubborn silence with Lyssa, while the Kosovo bombings dominate the news.
The Criminal And The Victim At Subway – Mad Chaos: March 31, 1999
Second diary entry for March 31, 1999. Simon Borrows Playing Cards, Play Cards In Subway, Predicting Change, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
A Crayon Love Letter for Keith’s Car – Mad Chaos: March 31, 1999
Shawn, Tatton and Tony leave a fake love letter on Keith’s car, sneak into a movie, then a wax sealed note and a very quiet Tuesday close out March.
The Double-Bulb Big Bang Theory – Mad Chaos: March 31, 1999
First diary entry for March 31, 1999. Double-Bulb Theory, Fusion Chambers, Time Travel, Expansion Of Universe, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary
My Double Light Bulb Theory of Time (Part 4) – Mad Chaos: March 30, 1999
Past six in the morning, a new philosophy of the universe takes shape using two joined light bulbs, piping systems and fusion chambers to explain time travel.
Prank Callers and a Dumaresq Street Chase (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: March 30, 1999
A football season with Shawn gives way to two mystery callers, a walk to their flats and a game of cat and mouse that ends with a crazed laugh.
Inventing the Word Disgress (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: March 30, 1999
Fate mocks every old relationship, the neighbors are moving, and a made-up word called disgress gets its definition along with two movie ideas.
Flushing Cockroaches and Judging Keith (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: March 30, 1999
Two weeks of aged thoughts finally get aired, from cockroach warfare to a swollen eye, plain dreams and Keith’s endless money schemes.
Ringing Phoenix After the Fight (Part 6) – Mad Chaos: March 29, 1999
Lyssa wants company at the hairdresser, and the day turns into a street argument. Later a phone call to Phoenix brings gossip about Imad.
Hiding in the Motel Shower (Part 5) – Mad Chaos: March 29, 1999
The talk drifts back to the same sore topic and the night ends badly. Morning brings a long shower, a silent room and a quiet breakfast.
Two Hours of Television and Tears (Part 4) – Mad Chaos: March 29, 1999
The night sours into two hours of television and an argument. Lyssa packs her bags, comes back and confesses how obsessed she is.