Lyssa Feels Left Behind
Lyssa ended up calling me around 8:45 p.m. and sounding a little down or upset I asked her what was wrong straight away. Lyssa relented after a while informing me that she didn’t get to go out shopping with Kieran. Rather, he came to her house and they drove for five minutes to Pedro’s house so he could get some money and then he dropped her back home. Kieran had made plans for the night to head out to the movies for the night and thus, he broke his plans with Lyssa.
Lyssa was once again upset about being the only one not having a boyfriend and saying things like “I was the first to get single again and now everyone else is getting hitched up before me, it’s not fair”. But, Lyssa is different to everyone else as she’s probably had about forty offers including people like Pedro, Hakim, Devon, Gideon and plenty of other legitimate callings but Lyssa seems to have knocked them all back. Meanwhile on the other end, I’ve had no offers but still, I haven’t really offered myself either so that sort of makes up for my lack of womanizing.
A Setup With a Familiar Face
Lyssa informed me that she was getting set up with the guy who went out with the girl who looked almost identical to Lyssa from school. She’s the girl that was a year below Lyssa and this guy had been going out with her for more than three years until they dumped each other. Well, this guy knows Pedro who in turn knows Kieran and Lyssa so happened to meet him one day a few months ago now when himself, Kieran and the other guy that looks like a Priest came over to Lyssa’s house.
That was the day where the guy told Lyssa that he knew me from school and basically that I was a nerd. Once again it pissed me off to hear he was still spinning this shit about me as he was also at Pedro’s house and although Lyssa stuck up for me I told her “I’d like to meet this prick, it’s obvious he’s going to think twice about who he calls a nerd when I put my fist through his eyeball and tear out his skull”.
Lyssa knew that I would pound him down to nothing but she insisted that I shouldn’t do anything drastic as it will come around on me later in life. Anyway, this guy seemed to like Lyssa when he noticed her and now he wants to go out with Lyssa and Kieran along with Pedro are trying to set it up. When he noticed Lyssa at Pedro’s house while he was in the car he just froze up but luckily for his stage fright he didn’t get to talk to Lyssa.
Saturday night Kieran is going to the movies with DJ and they were inviting this guy and Lyssa to go together but Lyssa informed them all that she wasn’t interested but she’s still thinking about going. I feel as most others do that he probably thinks he can get Lyssa because she looks just like the girl he was dating, to his eyes probably better. Another person that also seems to like Lyssa and has been asking her brother and other people if she’s single is Rhiannon’s brother, Gideon. Yep, that little shrimp dude, Lyssa doesn’t even remotely like him either but he’s pursuing just like everyone else.
Plotting a Nintendo Night
The conversation switched to plans that I’ve had brewing in my mind for a week or so now. Knowing that Lyssa loves the Nintendo and especially ‘Mario Brothers’ on that I thought that it would be a good idea to hire a Nintendo to play for the night. Since Shawn done it for himself and then brought it over to my house for a night I thought it would be a good idea for me to do this for Lyssa.
When I informed her of my ‘Nintendo Night’ plan Lyssa erupted in eagerness saying “Oh please, can we have a Nintendo night”. Lyssa got increasingly happy when I informed her that I was thinking of renting out Mario Brother’s and as we planned it and I told Lyssa what I thought it would cost (Being only around $20 if we both shouted) I decided to give Video Ezy and Blockbuster a call. Firstly I rang Video Ezy and it was only $10 to hire the console for the night but the deposit was $200, way over what I wanted to spend.
So I tried Blockbuster and luckily the deposit was only $100 which was within a doubtful reasoning. Giving Lyssa a call back she was somewhat fluttered but that didn’t knock her enthusiasm very much. The both of us had to pay around $60 each where we would get $50 of that back, not that bad. Planning our night in a week or two from now I feel that the Nintendo night is a possibility.
Weekend Plans and Neglect
Speaking of our commitments regarding the coming weekends I informed Lyssa that I will probably be going out tomorrow but as far as Saturday was concerned I had nothing on. Despite that, Lyssa had plans on Saturday but that was only the Kieran and DJ thing at the movies which Lyssa is thinking of canceling. On that note, Lyssa reminded me that Kieran is spending every day until Sunday with DJ and he’s spent the last couple of nights with her but despite this Kieran doesn’t seem to think he’s going to be neglecting everyone else including her.
Lyssa felt neglected today and that’s why she got upset about being alone but as always happens, she’ll get over it and future circumstances will change to her favor. Next weekend I’m once again not doing anything but I think Lyssa informed me that her dad was coming down and therefor, she had to spend Saturday night with him. That left us Friday and Sunday but I feel that this Saturday will probably be our night.
A Promising Phone Call
Lyssa and I ended our conversation around 10:00 p.m. so Lyssa could get herself some sleep and I have to admit that it was a promising telephone conversation. The time we spent on the phone we had things to talk about and I can give some credit to the fact that we haven’t been speaking that broadly to each other in the last couple of days. While we were chatting I had Lyssa start singing some song with me and as she was I put on the microphone and placing it on the phone I recorded the caper.
Once finding out Lyssa got me to tape her talking normally so she could hear what she sounded like. Lyssa couldn’t believe how her voice changed when played back to her. Also in our conversation while Lyssa was talking about guys and getting set up by everyone I noted that I had no one to set me up with anyone, no lady figure anyway.
No one new ever comes into our group and let’s face it, who would want to know our group, we’re not very sociable when it comes to women. Sarcastically I noted that Lyssa was the best thing to being my matching partner but one, she would never match me up with anyone and two, I would never really want to match up with her friends because she would never get rid of me. That’s when Marlene came up in conversation, the girl I think looks like Lyssa in one or two of her photo’s even though she really doesn’t resemble her.
This is also the girl I noticed at Ettamogah when I was sitting down and she was standing up and having a smoke with her skinny and hot friend with the ponytail. Informing Lyssa that I still had a thing for this girl we didn’t pursue it after the initial part of the conversation. I didn’t really want to talk about other beautiful women to Lyssa and I didn’t want Lyssa to feel awkward or upset that I was thinking of other women.
The Lady Across the Street
Now, getting onto other topics and having nothing really to talk about as that was basically my day, let me speak in detail of the Sonnet called ‘Blatant seductress is lust over mind’. Before I do let me just note that the time is 1:55 a.m. and the lady from across the street that this poem speaks of has just come home. For the whole day I hadn’t noticed her car at her house at all. The only people that were at her house was a motherly figure that had her own car but left and then the father figure that had his own Ute but I’m not sure if it’s there at the moment.
I’m not sure who own the house or who lives where but there was a light on in the house when she came home so I gather she doesn’t live alone. Rather, I feel the guy that looks like her father (Let’s hope it’s not her lover but I doubt it) lives in the house with her and she is the 25 year old daughter that hasn’t moved out of home yet. Or, she could be the successful fetish deviate slash Receptionist.
She looks gorgeous enough to be a model but I feel with these 2:00 a.m. schedules of coming home she must either be a stripper or a late night worker, pick the one that fancies the fantasies. Yesterday she got home at a regular 6:15 p.m. so I’m not sure if she has two jobs or one that always varies. What I do know is that she’s always wearing hot but Receptionist type clothing, she’s the bomb. So who lives with her and who owns the house, but to find out is my plan.
Explaining the Seductress Sonnet
Now I speak of ‘Blatant seductress is lust over mind’ and really, it isn’t too hard to work out but the finer points I will alleviate hither. The heading for explanation’s sake simply means that lust is the obvious seductress and is more powerful than the mind. The seductress can also been seen as the lady across the street but she doesn’t seduce me, my lust for her seduces me and induces my mind for seduction. This lady who lives just across the street from me is only a ‘stone’s throw away’ (1.1).
Each time I see even though she is seldom seen (1.2) she blesses my eyes and my lust filled mind. she does bless me even if she is scarcely seen and she scarcely ‘Pays’ scarcity. In other words, she makes herself more scarce than often but I’m still blessed each time I see her even though she crowns the likes of the word ‘Seldom’.
Another point of fact would be to say that even though she is seldom seen by me it feels as if she gives (Using the word ‘Pay’) more to the word ‘seldom’ by being fleetly seen when seen. I go on to say (1.3) that she blesses me with her fleeting beauty and gorgeous good looks even if she is somewhat older than I. Line (1.4) suggests an old truth that is the age of true beauty is in the eye of the beholder and thus, I think she is truly beautiful at her perfect age of 25.
Blonder at That
The second quatrain goes on to describe her person (1.5) as I note she has fair hair that is blonde. But, I go on to note that her hair is a magnificently distinguishing blonde and thus, is ‘blonder at that’. Her perfect age that is a rich 25 (Using ‘Wealth’ as the descriptive word in line (1.6)) and I say for her age she is beautiful. Even though I am seeing her from a far distance (1.8) I still think she is utterly beautiful from afar, that she has carved, sliced and ‘Rived’ from rare beauty.
Binoculars and Strive
The third quatrain goes on to mention that I need to get myself closer to her or get myself something that will enhance my eyes (1.9) so that I can see her much better and closer. Line (1.10) suggests that I get something that ‘Magnifies’ and by this I mean either a telescope or binoculars, maybe even a camera as such to capture her closer beauty.
With this closer look at her through binoculars or some sort of lens I will be all the more complete. She is much, much better than all other beautiful women that I’ve seen (1.11) and I ‘Strive’ (1.12) to get to know her better. The last couplet notes that the poet within people’s minds upon seeing her on the street will weave only thoughts of compliments and acclaim for her, as I praise her beauty in my Sonnet.

Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
