Predicting Kieran’s Big Sleepover Plan (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: December 23, 1998

Cycles Out Of Whack

How I loath the days when writing in this Diary seems like a chore and I feel that because of my negative cycle in my mental cycle this is the cause. However, I feel that all my cycles are out of whack for some reason. For the last couple of days I have been having troubles writing in my Diary and I am in the negative aspect of the cycle but in the first few days of this same negative cycle I produced some of the best workings in my poetry.

I realize that I could have miscalculated by a couple of days but I believe that I didn’t. It’s hard to calculate the emotional aspect of my cycle and the same goes for my physical. Although, I did obtain this little sniffle that is gone now around the first day of my negative physical cycle which would have been seven or less days ago. So what to believe for my biorhythm Cycles…

Lyssa On The Phone Again

Well, much has been talked about and much has happened which I haven’t cared to explain yet. Ever since Monday night there has been continuous events and here I shall care to explain them now. Most of the conversation relates to the conversations that Lyssa had on Monday and Tuesday. The conversation that I had with Lyssa on Monday that has not been explained yet happened around 7:30 p.m.

I actually gave Lyssa a call because I knew I was headed out to the City to buy my X rated movie, what a deal. I’m not sure if I’ve talked about Kieran yet in wanting to go over to Lyssa’s house and sleep there on Wednesday as she will be alone but I’m going to explain it now. Lyssa informed me on the phone that Kieran still wanted to sleep over Lyssa’s house on Wednesday night but as he talked about that night and asked her she just kept quiet and didn’t respond.

From what I’ve heard in all the recent conversations Kieran is going to some work party and after that (Drunk or not drunk hasn’t been established yet) he wants to head to Lyssa’s house so he can sleep there. It was an awkward thing to ask as friends and it will be more awkward if Lyssa spends the night with him as the both of them know it will only be the both of them.

She Will Not Listen

Lyssa definitely doesn’t want to take any chances with Kieran wanting to get onto her but she hasn’t got enough guts to do something about it. I’ve learnt something more about Lyssa and that is she doesn’t want to believe anything that anyone says if she has a different opinion. I know that no matter how much I tell Lyssa that Kieran likes her she’s just going to deny it and be naïve about the whole thing. In the back of her mind Lyssa knows the truth but she doesn’t want to admit it and in turn my incessant forwarding comments cause Lyssa to shut me up.

There’s no getting through to Lyssa because when I keep telling her to say something she won’t because she doesn’t have what it takes, she’s too nice and timid. Because Lyssa knows this she will only do the next best thing which is to get angry at me and tell me to stop talking. If I don’t do that then she would probably hang up the phone upset because she doesn’t want to listen to the truth. I proved it with so many but despite all these truths Lyssa doesn’t want to listen to reason.

My Forecast For Wednesday

“Kieran wants to make a night of it” is what Lyssa told me and with that I knew that he was up to something. If the night goes to plan here’s what I think will happen. Despite Lyssa having to go to sleep for the next night she will do her normal errands knowing that Kieran will be coming over soon at an aged time of night. The thought of her waiting for Kieran to come over so they can make a night of it makes me realize how Lyssa would feel about it, all nervous and tense knowing that Kieran wants more than just friendship for that night.

Meanwhile, Kieran will get off his work party early and he probably won’t drink to save some face and have a clear head. If he can fit it into his wild thoughts he will bring along the X rated movie with him gathering that he’ll drive over Lyssa’s house and probably leave the movie in the car. When Kieran knocks on her door he’s going to be his usual self but as they work around the sudden tension of having to perform and act out that they both don’t know what’s really happening.

Kieran would probably want to watch the porno and Lyssa won’t want to watch it but they’ll put it on anyway. From there Kieran’s thoughts will be upon Lyssa getting horny and then his fantasy coming alive as Lyssa will just be turned off by the whole ordeal but not say anything as she would be too timid and not know how to handle the situation. Kieran would probably want to sleep in Lyssa’s room on the floor, I won’t go as far as to say he would want to sleep in the same bed but I know that if Lyssa lets Kieran sleep the night something out of the ordinary will happen.

Penelope Offers An Escape

Lyssa talked to Penelope about Kieran wanting to sleep over and she went off at her. Penelope said that Lyssa could sleep at her house to get away from Kieran if she wanted to and I suggested the same for her. Lyssa asked if I too could sleep over Lyssa’s house if Kieran did but I’m not going down that path. I don’t want to be the scapegoat for Lyssa’s insecurity and if she doesn’t want to listen to me or sort out her own problems I don’t want to be dragged into them. Besides, knowing that Kieran has some alternative thoughts for the night I would think nothing but to hurt the little fella.

Then again, he’s done nothing bad to anyone and everyone could be overreacting about the whole sleep over thing, maybe we should give him some credit. Then again he could be just like the guy that Lyssa’s friend from work is going out with, let me elaborate.

A Cautionary Taxi Tale

As it is stated, when Lyssa was going home from her own work Christmas party it is common knowledge now that she spent $95 on the trip because she had to drop so many people off. There were four passengers in the car including two of her lady friends from work around her age and one of the girl’s boyfriends who is Croatian and is in the Liberal Party helping getting some lady elected for the state.

I’m going to write this next line out of text which will give away what happened but let me just say ‘Are all people from around Macedonia sleazy when it comes to being faithful. Take me as a prime example of being unfaithful to Lyssa with the workings and wrongs that I permitted with Jewell. Even though I wasn’t sleazy enough to invite someone into an affair based relationship I was very attentive to the female population. Call it what you want but I believe that I have a legitimate mental disorder which could be seen as the opposite of a phobia.