Mixed Signals From Lyssa
Turning off my computer and lying on my bed ‘Felicity’ came on and we started watching that. Lyssa touched me up to see if I was hard and even with Lyssa on her periods the fact that she was up against my body was enough to keep me hard. Lyssa also touched me up as we were out the front of my house waiting for her taxi. Lyssa and I were pretty happy for the night and Lyssa wanted to come over so she could be with me, not because of sexuality. She’s starting to confuse me with her actions though.
The night before she tells me that she didn’t like the idea of me getting onto someone else because she still liked me and then when I mentioned I should buy her lingerie as we looked through FHM and she noted it would be great to wear fetish gear she told me “We’re not going out anymore.” Then again, tonight she comes over just because she wants to be in my company and tonight when I joked around that I wanted to move in with Lyssa she got excited even though she knew I was joking. So, what’s with these mixed emotions and what do I make of it.
Jett Knocks at a Bad Time
Each commercial in ‘Felicity’ Lyssa and I turned around to hug each other and muck around. When Felicity finished Lyssa and I lay on my waterbed fondling each other and just laying on our backs. Our conversation was about sex and as I touched Lyssa’s boob and Lyssa said something (Which I can’t remember) it sparked me to say “Well then I don’t want to have sex with you at all” in a sarcastic mood. Lyssa also had something else to say and her last word was “Sex” as we heard “Tony are you in there” emanating from just outside our window.
The television was on and the curtains were open so whoever was outside could see Lyssa and I curled up in each other. Knowing that the voice belonged to Jett I told him I would be a second and then said to Lyssa “You picked a bad time to say that last sentence” as I walked out the door. Jett had come over to pick up his Play Station gear and as he walked in he said hello to Lyssa, supposedly with a grin as Lyssa told me.
A Plan to Raid a House
Heading outside Jett told me that himself, Kevin and Fred were heading to some guys house that was trying to kidnap his child. From what I heard Fred’s girlfriend’s brother’s girlfriend had a baby not too long ago and the father was trying to come around and kidnap the baby for himself. They had come over to ask me if I wanted to join them bombing his house but Jett knew why I couldn’t come. Now he’s probably going to think that Lyssa and I have done something tonight immoral but I guess if he had been over my house on Sunday then he would have come over at a bad time.
I’m not sure if Jett is going to spread anything but Lyssa or I don’t seem to be very worried. Heck, I candidly let Jett into my house not being worried at all what he thought, I didn’t care the slightest. When Jett left Lyssa and I just had a little chat about what could happen and then she told me it was about time she had to leave to catch a taxi, Lyssa came over to my house with her mum.
A Box of Memories Left Behind
As Lyssa prepared herself she left her box of our memories at my house afraid that she would forget it in the taxi and also so I could look over it. Just as Lyssa was heading off I was going to hand her the ripped up poems and as I told her about them I was getting them ready to hand to her but there was just not enough preparation.
So when Lyssa finally takes her box I’ll put my notes in there that have been ripped by her so she can rewrite them. Heading out the front Lyssa and I were hugging each other lovingly like we had been in my room just before she left. While Lyssa was doing she felt to see if I was hard and as I wanted I had Lyssa put her hand down my pants to get me hard, it worked very quickly.
Lyssa and I kissed on the lips a couple of times before her Taxi came and when it did I escorted her down to the driveway where I gave her another kiss and bade her farewell. Walking back into the house I had myself a shower and then started writing in this about tonight. Now that I’ve explained everything and the time is 12:15 a.m. for Tuesday I am going to start writing now about the Chronology of Saturday.
Into the City Nightclub
Picking up my story of Saturday night we have now progressed to stopping at Circular Quay and jumping out. Making our way out of the gates that were switched off meaning we needed no tickets but needed them for a night-ride home. Stopping only for Tyler and then Binh to find themselves a spot to piss I let my hair out as Keith was telling me it would look better than how I had it.
Agreeing with what he said on the basis that it would be different I let my hair out and as I flicked it around and let it settle everyone seemed to like my hair better the way it was. Making our way around the corner where Lyssa could have worked for her first job (Her mum’s company) we made our way to what I know now familiarly as ‘Jackson’s on George’. Having my ID checked at the front door I was worried that they wouldn’t let me in because of the expiration date having been passed but I was lucky, they let me through.
Everyone glided through the front gates of this little setting of outside dining tables, this place looked classy. Walking up to the second floor I noticed that the tickets were only $5 so I was cheering about the price and the girl standing at the front door. Getting myself stamped I walked in to notice that it was fairly small for so much hype built up for it, maybe that’s why there’s an hour wait outside to get in.
Smaller Than the Hype
When everyone was rounded up most of them walked straight to the dance floor where there was only about 30 people but in truth it’s not very much bigger than my room, probably double my room and it would have only fitted 100-150 on the dance floor. This was a bit of a let down but as I bought a drink and looked over the classier parts of the nightclub I was impressed. The design on the dance floor had a huge square pole that made its way to the roof and to the floor.
It was wide enough on each side to fit three people across it and the stage on the far wall was attracting a fair few amount of people to dance on it. On the left where the bar extended to the DJ box there was bars with space behind them to dance in. As long as you could fit through the bars (Which Ralf fit through) you were allowed to dance in there, elevated higher than the stage off the dance floor.
Orange Juice and Dancing
Buying myself a drink of orange juice I walked over near to the dance floor where Binh was standing and as we both drank our drinks we scoped out the area for our prey. Finishing our drinks Binh and I both walked out to find the rest of our group and finding them in a group we too started to move to the music. Tyler was all by himself above the rest of us on the stage and as Binh jumped up there I was tempted but saved it for later.
The Girl With the Glow Stick
Upon entering the time must have been around 11:30 p.m. and as we started dancing it didn’t take me long to start sweating with all the dancing I was doing. Looking around at the selective few girls that were there (Around 30 of them dancing) I noticed one hot one that reminded me somewhat of Jewell. She had a cardigan blue dress on just above her knees, a lighter blue top on and she was waving one of them glow things around her head.
The thing that most resembled Jewell’s appearance was the smile and graceful look she had on her face while dancing softly upon the dance floor. Apart from that she was skinny like Jewell, short in her stature, her face and bone structure were like Jewell and she was fairly blonde herself. It was only until I had seen her face in the light that she looked somewhat different with zits or red marks on her face, it was unbecoming but still she was attractive.
Tyler Tries His Luck
This girl that resembled I never approached in the whole night but as Tyler and I were dancing up in the prison cell part he jumped out to where she immediately on the stage next to him. He danced right next to her and Ralf was also dancing behind her and as he talked to her I noticed she kept the smile on her face and kept waving that glow thing around in her dance. That was basically her whole dance routine for the whole night, waving around the glow thing and doing a bit of a step or two.
I’m not sure what Tyler talked to her about but she looked to me as the snobby type that was down there to love herself and knock back any guy that tried getting onto her. Well Tyler had his little chat to her then he came back into the prison cells to dance around. It was this chance that I asked what he talked about and he shook his head as if to say ‘It was a no go, I don’t like her’.
Much later in the night she came up to me while I was once again dancing in the prison cell and asked me if I had a lighter. Telling her I didn’t have one she asked some more people along her way and asking these two beautiful ladies next to me if they had a lighter they also couldn’t help me. Deciding to test this girl with the glow thing who wanted a lighter I called her over my way and told her I had a lighter.
As she put the smoke in her mouth I hid the inside of my hand and with nothing in there I slowly brought my hands up to where her smoke was. Flicking my finger as if I had a lighter I fooled her and being the snobby tart she was she pushed me softly on the shoulder as if to say ‘Get lost’ and adding injury to insult she hissed at me and went on her way. It was then that I gathered she was the biggest tease in Jackson’s on George, it just took me a bit to see past her beauty, or beauty in the dark I might say.
Sweat and Orange Juice
Because the air was so hot on the dance floor I had to jump off with a sweating shirt, dripping out of control. Wiping my face and whatever else I could with a hopeful dry spot on my shirt I walked up to buy myself an orange juice once again. Three times I bought a drink, once Tatton shouted me but three times I had to get off the dance floor because I was just so sweaty. Nearing the end of the night for most of the people that came with us I made my way once again to the prison cells.
This was the same period of time that the girl with the glow thing asked me for a lighter. There were two fairly attractive girls dancing on the left of me and the one closest to me was the most attractive. At one stage I was in there all by myself but that’s when the girls and a couple of guys made their way inside. Sparking a conversation with the girl on my left hand side with the blonde hair I asked her “Have you ever been behind bars” and laughingly she responded “No, have you.”
From there I just chatted about the concept of being behind bars making a joke here and there, she was very friendly. Alas, she was pulled out by a guy that was with her and her friend was also pulled out and for the rest of the night they danced together. Regardless I wasn’t thinking that I would get them for the night and I didn’t think I was going to get anyone for the night.

Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
