Hated With a Passion
Keith also told me that when Lyssa and Penelope used to visit Ace at Mobil (Not necessarily Penelope) that she told Ace (Because he used the exact words given to Keith) that she hated me ‘With A Passion’. I remember ages ago Lyssa used that exact same wording to explain to me how much she didn’t like Imad when I thought she had a fancy for him or the other way around. Lyssa didn’t use it once or twice, she used it every time she explained Imad to me and I have reason to believe that Lyssa could have gotten that phrase from Penelope because she used to use it against me and Imad back in the day.
Lyssa used to tell me that Penelope used to hate Imad ‘With A Passion’ and I have a reason to believe that when Penelope told Ace that she hates me she would have also used the same wording with Lyssa which she picked up. I remember back then when Lyssa used that phrase that I thought to myself “What, since when does Lyssa speak like that, she must have heard it from someone else”.
What did I ever do to Penelope back while I was going out with Lyssa for her to speak with such a corrupt tongue. Why has Penelope hated me for such a long time, even though I treated Lyssa the best. Could it be that Penelope started hating me because Lyssa started saying bad things about me like I didn’t have a job and I was becoming a bum.
Could Penelope have hated me because I used to call Jewell and she used to hold more of a vendetta than Lyssa. Whatever it was Penelope hates me ‘With A Passion’ and because of that she also said to Ace that I never let Lyssa go out anywhere back in the days when Lyssa was hanging out with Channing and Kieran. That one truth from Keith’s mouth pissed me off the most because Keith even knew that I let Lyssa do whatever she wanted, I let her go to Nightclubs while I kept myself waiting at home.
Old Stories Resurface
I also remember Lyssa telling me ages ago when she was hanging out with Channing that her along with Penelope talked to this guy and Penelope told him that I didn’t let Lyssa go out anywhere and I got angry with Lyssa about that because she didn’t stick up for me. That is probably what Ace has brought up and that would be the link that Lyssa and Penelope had the night they both went to talk with Ace at Mobil.
If that’s the case then Lyssa would have heard Penelope say that she hates me and that’s what I’m dying to find out and why I will try and stay up for the night until dawn. Penelope is so wrong, Ali was the one that was obsessive and didn’t want Penelope hanging out with that bad smell and because of him I went along with it and didn’t actually tell Lyssa not to hang with them but I made it clear that I didn’t like it.
Keith Gives Some Confidence
Every single day that passes I hear more shit against my name started by Penelope or Ali and it’s really starting to piss me off. They love spreading rumors and to date I haven’t said shit about them. What have I done to deserve this from them, Ali should know better. Seriously, now I hate Penelope ‘With A Passion’ and I hope Lyssa will listen to me this time instead of protecting Ali and Penelope against me.
Keith said to me with all respect that he thought Lyssa hasn’t found herself yet and is trying to be like Penelope. I’m not sure where I’ve heard that before but someone said that to me while I was going out with Lyssa, maybe even Lyssa mentioned it but was defending herself about that accusation. Lyssa needs to get away from that particular couple because she is no longer within a relationship.
Keith gave me some confidence in conversation for the night as he told me that Lyssa kept to herself when he would see her at Nightclubs but on the other hand Penelope would try to be the Dancing Queen because everyone knows she’s all for show and is a try-hard. Keith also told me that Kieran is afraid of me but if it came to a fight, basically he wouldn’t be a Rory about it. Keith was then asked of me to find out more information about the night they traveled to the Dungeon and more about Penelope supposedly hating me.
Pulling Imad Into It
When I speak to Lyssa I’m going to have her ring Penelope and ask her if she or Ali have spoken to Imad and told him about Ace selling his car to Bielka. If it does turn out that Imad knows then I want to find out why he lied to me so intently last night and try to fit Imad into this picture.
From what I gather, Imad is like Ali, they both like to exaggerate about their cars, they are half brothers and when it comes to Lebanese blood Imad would rather stick up for Ali than his best friend. When Lyssa tells me that Ali never speaks bad of me when she is around I believe her but when she isn’t around is when I’m worried. Imad might not be saying shit about me but he would definitely know something that he didn’t want to tell me.
What really bothers me is that Lyssa could have known for all this time that Penelope has hated me ‘With A Passion’ but she never told me. I remember one time that I said to Lyssa “Penelope could find me attractive” and like Lyssa knew something that I didn’t she replied “No, somehow I really doubt that” and then she covered her tracks with “She loves Ali why would she like you”.
Calling Imad at Dawn
This truly is a small world and every day I am bringing that world of information closer to me. Lyssa definitely knows Ace because Imad knew him from Mobil and Lyssa used to talk about Imad knowing him to me. Penelope also knew him from back then and Imad doesn’t like him and I don’t think he really did. Imad could fill up part of the gap that is still worrisome to me, how much does Lyssa know Ace and how good does Penelope know him.
I’ve just called Imad at 5:50 a.m. and after asking him how long he’s known Ace for he’s told me that he’s known him for at least a year. Imad liked Ace at one stage but he stopped liking him because he was dogged by him for a girl. So, for a year Ace has been working at Mobil like Imad has and for that year Penelope could know Ace. From what Imad told me, Lyssa and Penelope first met Ace at a Nightclub.
That point seems to be true because Lyssa told me she first met him there through Channing and Kieran but when it came to remembering what he looked like or who he even was Lyssa was being all weird and telling me she couldn’t remember. Something’s going on deep that I’m either not supposed to know about or I shouldn’t know about but guess what, I will find out. My Diary is here, this is the key to information, I only wish I recorded more little facts in the past than I already have because then I would be able to nail it exactly.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
