Don’t be fooled into thinking I’ve spent this whole time out with my friends just because I am writing in my computer at this time. Far from it, tonight I got home at 1:00 a.m. and I had a reasonably good time but I could feel the nipping of the fall of this month, the downhill slide from hereon. You could say it’s a sixth sense for this matter but tonight could have been better. Tomorrow will be the decider for me when I head up to Penrith Panthers for which I am so excited and happy that I’m going there. From what I gather, the decider (That also runs twofold) will be the fact to see if I will have gotten onto someone by the time the smoke clears tomorrow night. If I did find someone then this decline of the month is only bogus. If no girls are found and I had a real good time then I’m sitting on the fence for the decider. However, if no girls approach me for the night then the downhill is already in progress baby. The twofold situation is this, if I get onto someone then there is the case of Lyssa. The situation after me getting onto someone could bring forth the downhill, what else could it do but rough up the relationship that Lyssa and I already have, jealousy will take place, anarchy will grab the reigns.
How silly of me, I forgot to hand in my form for Friday and only remembered around 6:00 p.m. when it was too late. That is the first time I have ever forgotten to hand in my form and missed a day. Now all I can do is wait until Monday and hope they don’t fuck me up. Oh shit, the downhill could be as a result of me not having gone to that Liverpool course that I have been set out to do. The ending date for that was the 19th of this month and I’m hoping they haven’t cut me off my payment yet, I need this last payment then I’m out of the red. Wouldn’t that fuck me up, having no money to pay my phone bills and because I’m too proud to lend off someone else or even my parents the phone will get cut off, that would be a real bummer.
Tonight was an exceptional night of hanging out with friends and even though Tamsen came along with Min-Su and created a couples kind of thing Ralf and I went our own separate ways for a little time where I learnt big glasses of orange juice were only 90 cents. Shawn and Tatton continued to dog us throughout the night and Simon joined the ranks of being a dog and staying hush for what they were up to. As for me leaving just after my Diary entry, it didn’t happen. Keith called me back and told me that we were leaving at 9:00 p.m. and Tamsen along with Min-Su were going to meet us up there. That alone made me not want to go for the night and I was a little bit anxious to see Lyssa at the Catholic Club. Nevertheless, Keith, Ralf and I traveled in his car that night to meet up with Tamsen and Min-Su and later in the night a host of people I did see and talk with.
Keith picked me up at 8:30 p.m. while I was getting bored playing my computer. Putting on my jeans and the black shirt that unbuttons fairly easy I jumped into the car and we drove to Ralf’s house. Jumping out to greet Ralf Keith handed me his memory card that he was selling to Ralf (The one that he didn’t give to Lucas) and locking up the house we jumped in the car and made our way to Campbelltown. Firstly we made our way through the Main Street and that’s when I found out that the nightclub ‘Two Moon Junction’ let’s in people for free after 2:00 a.m. or close to that. That’s pretty cool when you think about it, free to dance and pick up. Keith didn’t invite Shawn and Tatton to come for the night, he was trying to get them back for dogging us. Keith simply wasn’t inviting Shawn and Tatton along but later in the night they found their own way to the Catholic Club and into our little gathering.
Walking into the Catholic Club Ralf signed me in but I didn’t write any of my information in the book, pretty funny. Making our way to the dinner area where Keith, Ralf and Shawn had their dinners (And I had Milkshake with the rest of them) Tamsen called Keith and then she met up with us as we were waiting in line for a table. Ralf didn’t want to be there as soon as Tamsen showed up, his reason, it was becoming too much of a family affair. Ralf thought that because Tamsen was now here and Keith would be paying more attention to her they would treat him differently, like they were obligated to talk with him and he’s had enough of that. Ralf didn’t really want to eat either and I wasn’t too enthusiastic in the thought of sitting with Tamsen either. Ralf and I consulted each other as the tables were being prepared and our conclusion was that we go buy some drinks and sit with each other at the TAB tables. Agreeing with my idea I told Keith where we were headed and he told me to talk some sense into Ralf. Walking around the corner to where he was I guided him to where I wanted to head, family time at dinner, no thank you…
In this time Ralf shouted me to a cheap big glass of orange juice and as he bought himself a soft drink we headed to the tables in the TAB where you could watch the horse races. My preferred seats were in the quiet room between the snooker room and the rest of the Catholic Club seating area. Sitting there with our drinks Ralf and I just chatted away as I kept looking in every direction at women coming in, going out, looking pretty, you get the picture. Ralf was also in on my idea but he wasn’t as energetic to be with open eyes every minute. Min-Su told me later in the night as I was staring intently at some girls and making my noises from inside my vocal chords without moving my mouth as not to make it obvious. Min-Su said basically that I’m bad, that is, when it comes to perving on women. I’m constantly aroused by all parts of the female anatomy and why shouldn’t I be, they are beautiful and there with their skirts and high heels to please and believe me, I’m very pleased.
Two chairs were empty on either side of us as we sat there talking with each other and as politely as they came, our two seats were taken away from our table to seat bigger crowds. It was around this time that we were going to head for some other seats but I think Keith, Tamsen and Min-Su found us after their dinner. Ralf booked a game of snooker that would be ready in half an hour but for the meantime we headed to the pokies to play some games, but not me. Ralf and I made our way to a machine as Keith, Tamsen and Min-Su found themselves one. While at our machine I noticed Diamond for the second time in the night. The first was when Ralf and I were in the TAB and as she walked past Ralf’s eyes bulged out as he tapped me on the shoulder to show me what his eyes had seen which he rarely does. That’s when I told him it was Diamond and he commended me for liking such a beautiful figure. However, the second time I noticed Diamond, she was in the clutches of a guy and I figured since he is holding her so close and they were kissing, she had hooked up with him in the last week.
For ten minutes Diamond was standing in my clear view talking with her friends and one of them I noticed from Lyssa’s pictures. Keith, Tamsen and Min-Su made their way over to me and Ralf and Tamsen made it a little harder for me to see Diamond but easier to hide myself. I didn’t want to approach Diamond for another night but I took the comfort in knowing she was down at the Catholic Club every weekend without fail. Keith then turned to me and told me he had seen Lyssa in the Catholic Club and then he pointed over towards Diamond where I had noticed Lyssa was talking to the blonde girl whom was talking to Diamond beforehand. Nikita was also with Lyssa and Keith told me that this was my chance to meet Diamond. Walking up to Lyssa I was a bit worried of approaching her but as I tapped her on the back her friend left and along with Nikita, they both turned around to talk with me.

Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
