My Murmuring Disaster Beside a Commodore (Part 4) – Mad Chaos: January 25, 1999

Two Girls Near the End

The blonde girl with the fluffy hair that reminded me of a cross between Rena and Phoenix was there once again with white pants and white high heels on. She looked much better than the week before and she did notice me as I did her but she seemed to be dancing up with some guy so I left her alone figuring she was just doing the same thing as last week. In the last couple of songs I spotted two girls on the dance floor who both made me hot inside.

One of them had a red top (Seems to be a lot of them going around) and on top of having a nice above average face, she had the biggest breasts on a figure as tall as mine that I had ever seen. Well, they weren’t huge but I think they must have been something like an E Cup. To put it in comparison you would have to have four of Lyssa’s breasts on each side to fill up her cups.

This made her very attractive coupled with how skinny she was and her friend although not as busty, was much attractive. To me I liked the busty girls friend better. She had blonde hair and one of those white and light gray combination glitter shirts that accentuated her face. She was wearing a skirt and she had the finest skin I had ever seen, such a great tan. Her eyes lit up with a curiosity foreseen from someone so marveled on the dance floor.

Edging Closer on the Floor

These two beautiful girls and attractions of the night were dancing a couple of people away from Shawn and I and as we spotted them, I tried to edge closer with my dancing. I was saddened when they decided to leave the floor and I remember thinking that whenever I started dancing near girls they would always disappear. Maybe it’s just my imagination but girls seemed to jump off the floor when I got near. This wasn’t to be the case though as the girls made their way around the DJ box and right in front of Shawn and I.

Turning around to face the both of them the girl with the large breasts was closest to me but with her back to me facing her friend. The hot blonde was looking my way when she jumped back on the floor and I knew that something was up when they stepped there. Making my way slowly and unnoticeably to the busty brunette I came to be half a step behind her. Every now and again she would look behind her and across my shoulder but I could tell she was staring at me from the corner of her eye.

I was hoping that she wanted me to come near her and as I looked at Shawn I gave him a wink as if to say I was loving this. I didn’t dance up on her but I got real close to it as I waved my hands about near her. The blonde friend of hers wasn’t really worried about me being behind her but as I eased off near the end of the song, some Croatian looking guys started dancing up on her.

My Whisper Theory

The way I figure, if I ever want to dance up on someone or dance with them I will whisper in their ear before I do so. If a girl doesn’t turn and dance with me holding a smile on her face I’m going to whisper “Hi how are you” and then say “Look I don’t want to embarrass myself and be one of those guys that just dances up on you so, would you mind if I danced facing you instead of dancing to your back.”

This would be the kind way to go about it and almost always you would either get a girl feeling great that someone treated them other than a piece of meat. Almost always I am bound to get someone to dance with me instead of being snobby and I was just about to speak into the busty girl’s ear but I fought against my urge and paid the penalty of some creep just dancing up on her. With all these idiots dancing up on girls and them not worrying about it, I think I should start soon.

Waiting Outside for Them

Now as the night was over we headed outside and Ralf along with Keith headed straight to the car. Shawn and I hung around waiting for the two girls to walk out and when they did we also started walking towards the car. Hoping that they were both alone and those guys that danced with them didn’t know them at all I was glad to find that they were indeed alone.

Walking the way we were I made it an objective to walk along the same strip that they did and as we looked at each other for a second my love vessels busted with overdrive. Well anyway, you know the rest of the story as I have told it before but just incase you want to hear the low down, here it is. Jumping into Ralf’s car I started talking about the two girls to Ralf and how I wanted him to come with me as I talked with them.

Starting to walk over on my own with my mind already drawing a blank I had no clue what to do once there. I knew I wanted to talk to the girls but once I got to their car I just walked past it a couple of car lengths. Shawn and Ralf were with me as I made them believe I was there to look into the distant crowd for the girls but Shawn knew better and informed me they were behind us.

Stage Fright at the Window

My heart was picking up a little in speed and the adrenaline started to kick in. As I turned around I noticed the busty girl sitting in the passenger seat giving me a polite smile as she was looking in my direction. That gave me enough confidence to walk up to their car shrouded with my uncertainty and unconfident attitude.

It was because of this attitude that I literally froze up and upon walking to their window I could see their faces changing from inviting to uninviting with the thought that I was weird or some crazed stalker. I talked all in one tone and said absolute bullshit to them as Ralf stood behind me. Upset with my nauseating performance I told them I’m pathetic and walked away. My pathetic nature was the butt of most jokes back home in the car but I was the one to joke about my pathetic nature first.

The Speech I Should Have Given

The two girls that were sitting inside a brand new commodore were probably thinking how much of an idiot I was, having a good old laugh about my stage fright and lack of performance. They probably had some idealization of me in their minds but I must have ruined that for them once I made a fool of myself. How great it would have been to chat to these girls and get to know them but how great it would have been if I also had some confidence.

That is why I feel I should gain my confidence, but how. Let me just start by reciting what I should have said to the girls in a confident voice instead of the murmurs I gave to them to get as tense as I was probably hoping I would go away and save myself as much as I wanted to be saved. I should have said, “Hi lady’s, how are you tonight. Did you have a good time tonight.”

Then walking up to the car I should have said “You know, I’ve been coming here for the last couple of weeks and never did I see your beautiful faces in there before today, are you from around here.” Then I should have asked, “I gather that your name will be as beautiful as your looks, what’s your name.” From there just explain how my night was and then tell them “You know, I was meaning to talk to you inside but seeing that guy dance with you, I thought he was your boyfriend or something.”

That’s when I find out if they have a boyfriend and from there I ask “Are you lovely ladies waiting for anyone.” For my finale I would say something like, “Look, I’d hate to say goodbye and leave it at this so how about you girls start your car up, come drive to where we’re parked and then we can all go to get something to eat and chat. Maybe we can sit on the beach.” If they say yes to that then I’m in for a great chance.

Jokes on the Drive Home

On the way home in the car we were all just talking about how pathetic my attempt to chat up the chicks was. Ralf sounded more distraught about the whole thing and we all gathered he wanted dibs on one of them. Also on the way home we started telling jokes which I started. They were all ‘My Dick’s so Big’ jokes and there were some funny ones worth mentioning here that created some hysteria.

‘My dick is so big it broke the sound barrier’ was one of the one’s I came up with. ‘My dick is so big that it wrinkles before I do’ was another one of mine. ‘My dick is so big that when I was skinny dipping in the loch ness they thought I was the loch ness monster’ was another classic that created plenty of laughs. Keith fell asleep on the way home as per usual and it was up to me and Shawn to keep up appearances.

Lyssa Does Not Answer

Coming home around 4:00 a.m. I was the first to be dropped off and with that came the concern for Lyssa. Giving her house a call at so early in the morning I was just wondering if Lyssa had spent her night at home or not but Lyssa was not to answer the phone.

That meant one of two things, either Lyssa was just fast asleep and not able to hear the phone or she was fast asleep at someone else’s house and still unable to hear the phone. Later on in Sunday Lyssa informed me that she had slept over Penelope’s house for the night because she kept hearing noises at her house in the night. Soon after I started typing in my diary and much later in the morning I got myself to sleep.

Counting the Sweat

Now that I have explained the all of Saturday night I must still explain my day of present but once again I am sorry to say that it will have to wait. So again I will get home and have an abundance to speak of but hopefully I will get all the chronology out of the way by tonight. This I have been saying for the last couple of nights but I see that things will begin to change these next couple of days.

Before I get off this diary being 6:15 a.m., let me just note that heading out to clubs once a week is a great form of losing fat. Considering how much I sweat when I am there and the length of time I am jumping around with sweat dripping, you would gather it was an aerobic workout. So my body is going to get skinnier with this process and considering I am eating somewhat healthier and smarter now, I will automatically lose more fatty weight with the help of my exercise regime.