Let this be the last remaining week of confusion and let ‘Darkness’ take away this longing, this craving. Let us begin in thy month so young of October as yon breeze bloweth away winter’s wind and brings forth summers sun. Let thy month of October bring thee happiness in wealth, work and unconfused companionship. Unconfused yes, aged or new does not matter as long as confusion hath no place and love maketh hearts beat.
Starting of yesterday’s day I have already explained in some detail the happenings within three paragraphs. Let me now elaborate on some key points of the day. Before I do let me just say that today I woke up at 10:00 a.m. and slightly groggily. Jumping out of bed I made myself something to eat and called the place I was supposed to visit in Liverpool for job training. Irish whom I was supposed to talk to wasn’t there so I asked them to call me back. Just after I received a call from a Telemarketing chick representing Novotel. Pearl the Telemarketer asked for Mr. and Mrs. Eleninovski and figuring that I called Lyssa and I Mr. and Mrs. Eleninovski when we showed up to the Novotel in Wollongong I took the call. Pearl told me how she had an offer for me like they usually do and each sentence made me more interested. Let me give you the run down on the card they call ‘Advantage Plus Gold Card’. Basically I pay a once only fee of $195 and not only do I get unlimited free visits to their Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner menu’s at any of their Novotel’s but I get a free night worth $150 in one of their rooms plus eight 50% off vouchers for any of their rooms. This deal runs for a year so I gather that I would be able to make my money back very easily, just use the free room and eat free once, there you have it. But the only catch is you have to take one person with you to the dinners which shouldn’t be a problem. If that one person doesn’t have to pay for their dinners everything is alright. Well, I just called them up and it’s what I dreaded, one person for free. Well, the offer was good while it sounded good.
Wednesday morning upon waking up Lyssa and I kept laying there on the ground not really hugging each other because of the argument. Through the night Lyssa surprised me by coming up and hugging me for a little and then moving away, that made me happy. Lyssa was too busy coughing to talk in her sleep. Starting to hug each other once again in the morning I started giving Lyssa kisses on the neck and then she gave me kisses on the neck. Rather than kissing Lyssa gave me another hickey so now I had two and this was more noticeable. Being very horny from last night Lyssa jumped on top of me and only with her underwear on I pulled them aside. There we sat for ten minutes but once again we noted that Lyssa was still hurting from Monday night’s splitting ordeal.
Like I mentioned last entry Lyssa and I were getting ready to head for Campbelltown and I told Lyssa I would come along. Firstly, the only selfish reason I was going with Lyssa to Campbelltown was because I thought we would go to her house and there would be no one there. How I was wrong when Lyssa called her house out of curiosity and the both of them were there. That ruined my hopes and along with my thoughts of Lyssa using me for her pleasure I gathered that Lyssa wouldn’t do anything for me anyway considering she had the morning to pleasure me. Having myself a shower Lyssa waited a couple of minutes and then she too had herself a shower.
Dressing her hair and getting scared of my squealing hair dryer I lay on the waterbed with a blank expression on my face knowing what I knew but knowing Lyssa didn’t know. When the time was coming close to bus times Lyssa asked me to get ready and that’s when I told her I wasn’t going. Lyssa looked at me asked me why and I just said “Because I don’t want to”. Lyssa started getting angry and in her anger started bitching to me the usual hatred. Lyssa tried ringing Carleigh for a lift and when she found the phone was off the hook she called Nikita, Constantine, Penelope and a horde of other people. When no one was home (Probably another fate thing) Lyssa asked me again to go to Campbelltown. By this time I was sitting on the ground and Lyssa looked at me with her baby eyes and walked over to me, crouched down onto me, placed herself over my legs, arms around me and head on my shoulder and asked “Please Tony it would mean so much”. What can you do after something like this, after all I could smell her Coconut Oil hair and the perfume on her body and I couldn’t say no.
Lyssa was happy and with that we made our way to the very first bus stop. Having enough money we jumped on with a couple of minutes to spare and made our way to Campbelltown. Lyssa thought I was going to be shitty in Campbelltown but I surprised her by being sarcastic on the bus. Lyssa would be looking straight and then I would stare at her and when she would notice me in the corner of her eye she would look at me but immediately my head would turn as if I wasn’t looking. Lyssa would see that from the corner of her eye and after a couple of times doing this Lyssa and I were all smiles. Lyssa and I were sarcastic some more where I said to Lyssa that she was fat, ugly and had too much freckles, she knew I was just kidding.
The first place we visited in Campbelltown was the Newsagent all the way up Queen Street. Holding Lyssa’s bag so that she would have an easy walk (And because it was courteous) we made our way up Queen Street. There was no way to keep knowing eyes away from us as I noticed a couple of people in Campbelltown that would think twice about whether Lyssa and I were back together. In the Newsagents Lyssa showed me the ‘Manpower’ magazine and her favorite man from there. Lyssa once again told me how she was seeing Manpower with Carleigh in a couple of weeks time, she will be close to the stage. From ten minutes of looking at this book we walked to the card section and I started angry that she was wasting my time with Penelope’s time. There she sat looking for a birthday card and I just kept dissing Penelope.
From there we walked to St. Imad bank around 3:00 p.m. as Lyssa wanted to see if her money was in yet. While Lyssa waited in line I walked around to keep myself busy. Lyssa only took a couple of minutes and walking out of the line I noticed her money was in her hand and then into her purse. Lyssa wanted to take me to Red Rooster so we made the long trek down there.
Ordering myself a burger and some chips Lyssa ordered some chips and a piece of chicken or two and buying two drinks for the both of us we sat down. Sipping on our drinks awaiting our food Lyssa and I started talking about the reality of the both of us now. We talked about getting a new partner and Lyssa told me that if I had seen a girl that I really liked and Lyssa was around she wouldn’t mind if I cracked onto this other girl in front of Lyssa. That was a bit half-truthed because Lyssa would care but wouldn’t show it. If Lyssa was chasing guys I couldn’t say anything but I would be hurt and feel disrespected.
As our food was brought to us we started devouring our food whilst still talking. Lyssa told me how she was going to go home after this and watch a movie but through that I didn’t hear her invite me and thought it would be enough anyway. Lyssa showed me a business card of a modeling agency and then told me how two of her friends at College (Two hot friends) along with Lyssa have applied for a modeling course. One of the girls who is sixteen years old is already doing some catwalk work and guaranteed Lyssa and this other girl some work alongside of her. After this course is done for modeling Lyssa will definitely get herself some work in the field. Lyssa told me that after her course is complete she will be modeling alongside her friends and a real hot male guy.
Lyssa and I also talked about the future and what we thought was lying in the wake. Lyssa told me that she would probably fall for more losers after me and that she would never ever have sex again because it would hurt her too much. Speaking to Lyssa about this and interrogating her for the truth I had her say that she would have sex but only after the guy was tested and if she loved him.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
