Lyssa and I talked about our lost relationship and then out of the blue I asked if Lyssa wanted to come over on Sunday. Lyssa asked why and when I told her for some booty I was surprised to find that Lyssa wanted casual sex from me. That was a bit hurtful as I couldn’t have all of Lyssa once again but I would have to take what I could for now. Now I was content with not really having had a proper orgasm (For a guy anyway) as I would be with Lyssa on Sunday. Well, this might most probably happen as long as Lyssa doesn’t have to be with any of her friends. If all goes well, Lyssa will sleep over my house on Sunday night and we will have some great sex and I might actually release my tensions.
Lyssa also told me about how she was at Bielka’s house one day and she was shown pictures of the formal. There was one picture where everyone thought Lyssa and I looked so in love and hot together. There were two people posing in the front and in the background of the picture was Lyssa and I. Sitting at the table for our night Lyssa was sitting on my lap and as both our eyes were closed and appearing like I was drawing Lyssa into my grasp, my hands around her torso and face we were both sensually kissing each other, just touching lips. This is the first time in a while Lyssa had cried for the both of us and that is why Lyssa called me after our two weeks of not talking. This is when Lyssa broke our word of not calling ever again. This was the conversation where I made Lyssa believe I was gay and then had a great conversation. This is where I started realizing that I had to finish my confusion. The picture sounded so beautiful to me that I asked Lyssa to have Bielka give it to her so that I could see it some time down the track.
After eating our food and sitting there to talk with each other for an hour Lyssa had herself a smoke out the front. This once again upset me but I couldn’t stop it. This is when I remarked to Lyssa that it upset me to see her smoking in front of me but she just hid behind my deceitfulness. Lyssa and I were being sarcastic with each other after some arm wrestling in Red Rooster as we were pushing each other and calling each other names. For a couple of seconds I looked at Lyssa as a friend and I really believed that right at that moment we were acting like really good friends. I guess that’s why Lyssa felt the urge to grab me and lay a kiss on my lips, her appreciation was phenomenal. That made me feel great and we both had smiles on our lips as thoughts flourished our minds.
Lyssa now had to go home so we made our way back up Queen Street and walking past a Chemist Lyssa told me how she loved them. Lyssa would buy anything and everything from a Chemist because they were just packed with cool stuff. Walking past the next Chemist Lyssa walked inside and I hopped along. While in there Lyssa tried on some different nail polish and after some help from the woman working there Lyssa bought some light purple nail polish and some foundation.
Making our way to Campbelltown station we jumped onto the train and once again Lyssa and I started being sarcastic with each other and acting like friends. Once again Lyssa lent over to kiss me on the lips and I said “Why is it you that always can kiss me but I can’t kiss you”. With that I grabbed Lyssa’s face and she sat there tauntingly backing away with a smile on her face. That was cool and finally I grabbed her lips with mine and we kissed then acted normal once again with smiles adorning our face. When Lyssa kisses me like that it shows true love towards me. Lyssa loves me so much on the moment that she can’t resist but to kiss me and I too can’t resist.
Jumping off at Leumeah we walked towards the Video Shop and Lyssa tapped me telling me that Jermaine was in front of us waiting for a lift. Lyssa then said “He probably thinks that we’re back together” and then noted that every time Jermaine would call he would ask “You won’t ever get back with Tony will you”, poor Jermaine. Lyssa decided it would be polite and talk with him for a couple of seconds and as we did I kept looking his way but he didn’t want to look at me, a bit embarrassed he must have been. I know he didn’t want Lyssa and I to stop, that was funny. Making our way to the Video shop Lyssa rented another movie for the night and once again didn’t invite me over as it would have been polite. Rather, sitting at the bus stop Lyssa told me that she had a great two night’s spent with me and that made me happy. Before Lyssa’s bus came I heard my train and knowing that my bus was also leaving soon from Campbelltown I had to leave. Giving Lyssa a kiss on the cheek and then on the lips I said goodbye and parting our eyes glance I made my way hurriedly to the train. Looking from the window I didn’t see Lyssa looking back towards the train once, I would have liked her to. Catching the bus home almost straight away I entered my house and then boredom and reality struck. No more could I feel good knowing I was with Lyssa, now I was alone once again.
Lyssa didn’t invite me over but it was a good thing. That was my whole day and for the rest of that night I was sitting at home hoping that Lyssa would call and by the time it was 9:30 p.m. I didn’t think she was calling. Being home only half an hour I was missing Lyssa so I called her house but Aria, Kieran and Nikita were over her house. That came as a bit of a surprise as they had come over her house so fast. Just asking if Lyssa got home alright I let her go and didn’t ask her to call me back. Lyssa did call me back at 10:30 p.m. and that made me happy for the night.
Now as I sit here this afternoon of Thursday I look forward to Sunday where Lyssa and I will once again be together. Because Keith and Shawn wanted to come over on Tuesday night I made plans for them to come over last night but Keith was working and I didn’t bother calling Shawn. Maybe I will give Tatton a call today so I can go over there and train since I’ve used my money on bus fare with Lyssa. Tomorrow I have made an interview with the place I was supposed to visit for Centrelink but tomorrow I have to hand in my form. So I will have to ring them back and make it another day or time, maybe still tomorrow. Lyssa is supposed to be home today because she wasn’t going to work but since she hasn’t called me yet maybe she is at work or just busy with all her friends over her house. For that reason I don’t call her and allow her to give me a call when she feels the need. Last night when Lyssa called me and expressed how she misses me and the regret that I cheated really sunk into my mind. Lyssa would get back with me but I feel because of my cheating she can’t do it. So here I am stuck and waiting for the suns of the new month to bring new growth.
Thursday 11:38 p.m.
First there was cloning, now microsurgery has brought us surgery that can give a living man a dead organ, like a dead man’s hand. What will be next as the clock ticks past the year 2000 and our newest president is sought for the ending of this millennium and to start our new millennium. What else has modern technology brought us. Well, the latest on the news right now is that technology has brought us microwaves that have touch screens so you can do your banking or send e-mail.
Well, my future will be future when “ESPology” is an every day commodity. It’s a good thing when you don’t miss a day’s worth of writing, that way you aren’t rushed into writing. Tonight I took my time and I’ve just been watching the finale of ‘The Footy Show’ and it was pretty good, got me singing along. While ‘The Footy Show’ was playing Keith gave me a call at 11:00 p.m. and asked if Shawn had called me for the day. Telling him he hadn’t Keith’s plans were screwed for coming over my house. I felt like being alone anyway but I thought I should mention that little bit of trivia.
It’s funny how these days I would prefer to be alone when at my house and that’s just me right now. There are times when I would prefer to be around friends and those are the times I’m really bored or want to get ‘Waiting’ off my mind. Like today I was hoping that Lyssa would call as she told me she was staying home for the reason she was sick but considering she didn’t call for the whole day she could have gone to work. If Lyssa did go to work then she would have traveled to the Pub after work so that wouldn’t have given her enough time to ring me. If Lyssa did stay home sick well then she was purposefully trying not to call me so we can have some distance which in turn is good in a way.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
