A Chain Mended and Faith Renewed (Part 3) – Mad Chaos: January 21, 1999

Down to Campbelltown Jewelers

Dressing myself loosely I started my journey down Campbelltown recalling it was a fairly hot day. When I finally made it to Campbelltown I started my journey to the mall as that was the only place I thought had jewelry shops. Walking to the one upstairs near the escalators and the photo shop I waited inside for some service clutching the chain in my hand but they seemed fairly busy with customers so I moved on. Making my way downstairs I noticed a couple of good looking girls.

Actually, there were heaps of good looking girls walking around Campbelltown and if it wasn’t for my lack of confidence I would have just walked up and talked to them as I would have back in the day, what have I got to lose. On that subject though, I must give myself time to move on like I have. By that I mean I shouldn’t rush into a new relationship or just sex but rather, I should just let it come to me like Lyssa did.

Quaint Shop Saves the Day

The next jewelry shop in the mall I visited was downstairs and they gave me service but after finding out that it would take a week to re-kink my chain I told them where to go. Thinking that my day of searching for a one day fix would be useless I was thinking of heading to Macarthur Square but hoped I would find a shop up Queen Street somewhere.

That break came where I entered the building where ‘Alexandria’s Hairdressing’ was. There was a quaint little Chinese owned jewelry shop there and walking in I tried to explain to them what I wanted done. When I heard them speak to me in their half hearted Australian that it would be done in half an hour I was astounded. What’s more, the $7 price was great to hear and so I left it with them.

Waiting on a Mended Chain

For that half an hour waiting for my chain to get fixed I made my way to Centrelink. While there I checked out a couple of jobs and also noticed a blonde and skinny girl walk in. She was pretty stunning with her black dress and no bra and standing on a job machine that was overlooking her I tried my best to get a good look. She stood in the line as her boyfriend was in his brand new red Ford waiting for her.

Not able to wait in line any longer she made her way outside and while she did I noticed her dress and how her nipples were poking abruptly from the black material and how they had contingency to pop out of the top with a leap or jump. Basically, when she left it was time for me to head off because it was nearing the half an hour mark. Making my way to the middle of Queen Street where the crossing is I sat myself down in that little arcade part waiting for time to tick down.

There was also a girl sitting a couple of lengths across from me also waiting for something but after a couple of minutes I jumped up and never did find out what she was waiting for. My chain was ready and with that I paid, took it outside and fitted it onto my neck from where I was sitting previously. Happy with my outcome and my renewed faith I made my way back home.

Phone Calls and Petty Gossip

Now, my Tuesday back at home was fairly ordinary and I didn’t have any other contact with anyone apart from Lyssa. Giving Lyssa a call around 5:00 p.m. the both of us only talked for a little while but Lyssa decided to give me a call around 9:45 p.m. that night. In our conversations Lyssa told me she had a surprise to tell me and after a while of trying to conceal it Lyssa revealed that Chris Tucker and Janice Chan were going to be at Grace Bros. in Miranda.

She wasn’t sure of the day or the time but just last night when Shawn and Tatton were over I found out that it was going to be Friday at 3:00 p.m. Another topic of conversation was how Lyssa is going to try and get Penelope to take over the trainee position at her work when she is finished but I doubt that will be allowed. Penelope’s boss treats her like shit at the workplace and a couple of days ago she confronted him.

When she makes coffee or so forth he complains that it’s not right and makes her do it again. Penelope hates her job and just wants to get out. Then there’s the hearsay that most of the girls from St. Pats are going to have a reunion. I’m still not sure if they are having dinner or going out to a nightclub but the plans have been made for tomorrow night and Lyssa is ecstatic.

A Corset and a Cheeky Ask

Through our second conversation of the night Lyssa informed me how she was shopping around Parramatta with her College friends when she came across a lingerie shop. While in there Lyssa spotted a corset and garter set and the only thing that it didn’t have was stockings. Costing only $50 Lyssa told me it had the corset, the garter belts to hook up to stockings and the G-String. The actual corset was very tight Lyssa informed and being black in color it would also look stunning how it hugs her boobs completely having them practically falling out with a couple of bounces.

“Why don’t you buy it for me” Lyssa asked and with that I had to remind her that I was the broke one with no money and she was getting four times what I earned in one week. On top of that, I can’t afford to spend my money recreationally when that money has to pay off my late due bills, especially if the money was for someone else.

Why I Stepped Back

As much as it would be flattering to see Lyssa parade around in a corset and it would fulfill one of my ambitious fantasies I don’t feel the need to splurge on them right now. Lyssa keeps pursuing our sexuality even though we have broken up now and despite me also being a horny bugger, in reflection to Lyssa I’m not as close to being clingy to our sex life as she is.

I have to admit that my sex life with Lyssa even after breaking up with her has been tremendously entertaining and knowledgeable and I feel that Lyssa is holding onto me for that reason, great sex. Lyssa doesn’t want to let go of great sex to just have nothing and even though we have tried it seems that Lyssa doesn’t want to try hard enough and to a lesser extent, neither do I.

Alas, I have more of a reason to leave the current sexual scene as while Lyssa is receiving multiple orgasm after orgasm I get the scraps most of the times. That is a great deterrent to our ongoing sexuality and that’s why I’ve taken a step back now. Instead of being my usual self and satisfying Lyssa’s needs whenever possible hoping that I would get the same in return but having my needs disregarded I’ve been (My catch phrase for the week) Stand-Offish.

Maybe Lyssa’s idea of showing me she can be satisfying to my needs is buying this lingerie but if she wants to do me this sexual favor to my mind’s appetite she shouldn’t even think about me trying to pay for my own fantasies. Lyssa knows how I have been constantly disappointed during sex and the idea of this corset not only eases her guilt of getting all the goods but it showcases her ability to try and make things better and more evenly dealt to me.

Phone Calls That End Abruptly

Our conversations on the phone are getting bleak these days. By this I mean that Lyssa and I don’t talk as freely although we are open and our conversations end abruptly. By this I mean that Lyssa and I will be talking and all of a sudden out of sarcasm Lyssa will announce “Bye” and to that I will say the same. What surprises me is that Lyssa really means it and she hangs up the phone when we are sometimes mid thought. Maybe Lyssa is just trying to be funny but that seems to be the situation these days.

Maybe Lyssa is also trying to put a cap on time we spend talking on the phone like ‘The Rules’ state, maybe she’s trying to space us with shorter conversations per day. Well, because Lyssa has been doing it I thought I would do it back to her today and now we are both getting off the phone without a real reason and without any real hassle. It’s weird and sometimes confusing since Lyssa speaks of her ongoing love for me over the phone and then a minute later she bluntly says goodbye.

Another Era Without a Name

Lyssa and I haven’t had sex for over a month now and I can feel Lyssa’s urge growing in the way she maintains her conversation. By this I mean that a month ago after our last sexual encounter Lyssa would be ho hum about any talk of sexuality. As time grew longer Lyssa would be persistent in reminding me how affectionate she felt about me. In the last couple of days after Friday which was the last time I satisfied Lyssa she has been more forward then ever before.

Lyssa occasionally says things like ‘I know you love me’, ‘I want to hug you’, ‘I want to come over your house right now’ and the ever illustrious words ‘I want to have sex’ that are so out of character. You can tell that Lyssa really wants to have sex and once again satisfy her hormonal contingencies but myself, I am not in that situation.

Rather, I have learnt not to trust sex with Lyssa and sexual favors from Lyssa as they rarely ever satisfy me any more or rarely do they ever happen. I would give this new era of my existence another name but I’ve named my days and months in the last couple of years so generously that it would serve no purpose to recall these somber days with a name. On top of that, these days also share with other eras and this, my new era of manhood we are now in, once again unnamed.

Now that basically is all of Tuesday explained so we only have ourselves Wednesday to get through and then we are up to our foremost day being today, the end of our chronology.