Keith and His Secrets
The fact that Keith was cheating on Tamsen was then brought up by me because even though I had my chance and aren’t sure if I would have taken that risk I don’t endorse affairs. Rather I asked if Keith thought he was getting married to Tamsen and as he told me straight out “Yes” I asked if he was going to tell Tamsen about his affairs with Phoenix. He denied Tamsen from the truth and if it got out Keith told me he would just deny it strenuously.
Keith tried informing me that everyone has secrets and skeletons in the closet about affairs when getting married but I just told him that was bullshit. Keith then tried reasoning with me and informed me that he would tell Tamsen he had been cheating with her only if she asked him and only if it was when they were married. Keith thinks that marriage is his safety net to get out of trouble but let me tell you, if I was Tamsen and Keith didn’t tell me he was cheating on me until I finally found out in marriage, divorce would be the first thing on my mind.
The fact that he kept it from me until marriage was a sin in itself. If I got married before we even set a date and before I even proposed I would reveal any secrets to my new wife so there would be no conscience when we were finally married. If Lyssa and I ever get married then I would have to tell her all about Jewell and the CD’s I sent her and if she forgives me totally, the wedding is on…
Driving Over to Tatton's
Ringing Tatton’s house Keith disguised his voice over the phone and as Eric answered at midnight he went off at Keith and then he hung up as Tatton picked up. Jumping into Simon’s car we spent a while persuading him to confront Tatton and talk with him because supposedly he had been listening too hard to Phoenix and along with Shawn they were both taking her side, pretty pathetic. This reminded me of the time that Phoenix had me fighting with her ex boyfriend that night we drove over to his house with Kofi in the car.
She instigated that whole mess of words telling me that her ex boyfriend wanted to bash me when it really wasn’t true. She’s doing the same shit now ringing Imad to fight Buck but it didn’t happen, he’s not as dumb as her. History was repeating itself and this time and once again Tatton was playing the sugar baby, taking the bitches bait. Tatton always boasts that he dogs friends over girls, here he’s showing us his dog act in action.
While at Tatton’s house we kept shining the lights on their house as Shawn and Tatton were watching television. For a couple of minutes they didn’t notice us outside and as they did come out they were surprised at who was at their door. Simon always hides behind his dad when it comes to trouble because he can’t handle his affairs. Paying Shawn off has now become his dad’s problem, speaking to Imad was his dad’s affair and now Simon was going to get his dad to speak to Tatton about the whole ordeal.
As they walked to Simon’s door I greeted them from the back and basically told them to talk it over about the problem at hand that I was constantly learning about. Tatton was acting hard about he whole situation and I feel he was only that hard because Shawn was around. Tatton left in a huff and puff with big words to Simon and as we left clued out we visited ‘Subway’.
Hot Chips at Subway
While at the ‘Subway’ I bought myself some hot chips and while we were there conversation once again started flowing about the problem in hand. In my mind I was pretty sure that Phoenix was either taking it too far or making up shit. If that was the case I can’t understand how she’s gone to babysitting Simon’s sisters to hating his guts, there has to be some missing or smeared information left untold. Keith informed me that Noah had gone out with Phoenix at one time and hoped that no one was saying shit about Noah.
As Keith told me that they started going out with each other around the end of February he started telling me he was getting pissed off with Phoenix and all the shit she’s started causing. “If Tatton breaks up our group because of his beliefs of Phoenix I’m going to slap him across the head” Keith noted as his fury started to rise. He then went on to assume that Imad hitting Tatton will also break up the group but I doubt that very much.
March 6th 1998 (If that is Keith’s birthday) was the night that Noah found out Phoenix was cheating on him with her ex boyfriend they all now know as Adrian. Something stupidly stupid of Phoenix’s terminology to add before our next paragraph. As they were driving to the City on Saturday night and Keith raced a 200 SX Twin Turbo and supposedly won Phoenix was shouting “That’s my baby” from Simon’s car. “Um, Phoenix, that’s Tamsen’s baby” boasted Simon as he put her in place…
Taking Sides at the Car
Tatton turned up to the ‘Subway’ and as he motioned me over to the car I spoke to him and asked him what the story was. They basically told me that they believed Phoenix’s rape story but then I told him that he also done practically the same shit to her a couple of weeks ago and I’m sure they were going out with her tomorrow night for that same drive, sex with a slut.
Keith came out soon after and we talked for half an hour with Tatton about Phoenix’s side of the story, Shawn decided to take it a step further and reminding me of myself he darted to where Simon was sitting alone in the ‘Subway’ and talked mostly about getting his money back for his motorbike, sternly. “You know where I stand with this whole situation” gloated Shawn and after half an hour of talking with Tatton Shawn came back to the car and then it was time for them to head off.
They obviously came down to pick at Simon and they had their chance but while we were speaking to Tatton and Shawn I basically said “What are you doing, siding with pussy or siding with your friends”. I mean sure, if Simon really did try to rape her and not the same shit that everyone else has been trying to do which is get onto Phoenix then yeah, I would hate him for doing that shit too. Tatton and Shawn have jumped the gun in the belief of Phoenix’s story over the friend simply because they too want that pussy.
Gossip Over the Table
When the two of them left we once again began with conversation as Keith informed me of some tid bits here and there. Bringing up Marley from Ingleburn Pizza Hut I finally found out that she had not only gotten onto Daffa there but also Irish who once got onto Phoenix. What’s more, I found out he got onto Marley the night of the Halloween Party, when Simon tried to get me away from her and also when Daffa was putting his face everywhere when I got close to talking with Marley.
Makes you wonder what he said about me because he was scared I would one day get onto her, weak mother fucker. He’s half way through his 20’s maybe more and he gets onto 16 year olds, how perverted and illegal is that. Simon told me that Pippa (Who is fucking Imad at the moment) had something to do with Ace and after some prying Keith told me that he was fucking her just before Imad met her. This would make an understanding of why Imad has a tendency to hate the company of Ace, he liked him at first but now he doesn’t.
Why the Mates Drifted
Keith also told me what I’ve always wondered about. I’ve always thought that Keith and the rest of them stopped hanging out with me for the fact that I was with Lyssa and spending my weekends with her but the truth of the fact is that they stopped hanging around with me because my weekends out were always with Ali and they hated him. That quashes my thoughts about their absence in that part of my life and that brings to attention the fact that in March of 1998 I couldn’t find anyone’s name apart from Ali’s, Penelope’s and Lyssa’s.
This must have been around the time that I slept over Lyssa’s house for three weeks while her mum was in America and I can recall that the next few days she slept over my house. This would explain the fact that every single month to the beginning of this Diary to this present has involved Keith, Simon, Lucas, Tatton or Shawn, March had none of them. I’m not sure if Jett was involved in any of those nights but I doubt it, I’ll look later.
Pimples and Chicken Oil
Well, now that the time is 4:50 a.m. I guess I should get to sleep and hope to wake up earlier than my usual 3:00 p.m. but I can’t be too sure now. You know what pisses me off… Apart from that I’ll tell you what pisses me off. Sitting here without an awkward thought due to being in the nude I look at myself in the mirror. Not because I want to check out my body but because I have pimples that have formed on my back.
Right now there are only two, one on the right side but middle of the back near the spine. The other is on my right hand trapezius muscle, near the shoulder but further down the back a couple of centimeters. These spots are usually reoccurring and what pisses me off about them is they only appear because I get cooking oil on my back after I’ve eaten something like chicken then scratched my back.
When this is done I scratch the area further irritating it then, wham, you have massive red lumpy pimples on your back, horrible. Sometimes this happens to my face and I get pimples in the same way, oil buildup. They are usually on my right hand side of the back because I mainly peel off oily chicken skin with my left hand and then I scratch itches on my back causing oily skin. When will the day come forth where my back will be totally without marks and my face will be spotless.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
