Not Letting Ali Be Her Best Friend (Part 1) – Mad Chaos: November 19, 1998

Late Night Writing Again

Well here I am again, early in the morning but it doesn’t matter, words are just as significant. These are the dying hours of my wakeful hours and I intend to spend the last half an hour to an hour speaking of the rest of my chronology. Let us now start once again as I have no philosophy to speak. Let us now start of Tuesday night.

The Party She Mentioned

There was only one real importance on Tuesday night and that was my conversation with Lyssa over the phone. In the morning she gave me a call before she left for College and since then she called me back at 9:00 p.m. or it could have been before this. Lyssa and I were once again eager to get together because our horny bodies so we talked of that for some time.

Lyssa and I gathered that we wouldn’t be able to see each other on the weekend and as Lyssa told me that she had a 21st birthday party to go to on Friday I told her that I knew. “Really, who told you”, Lyssa asked me and not knowing a thing about the party I blurted out “Constantine told me, I’d seen her two nights ago at the Mall and we started talking, that’s one of the things she told me”. Jagging it from there I asked Lyssa if she liked the guy and Lyssa responded “I’ve had him before”.

Explaining it more to me Lyssa informed me that she got onto him once before, just before she started getting onto Braxton and a couple of months before Lyssa and I started going out. They weren’t serious, only a kiss or two and Lyssa told me she doesn’t like him anymore.

Saturday Plans Collide

Seeming that Friday was out for Lyssa we talked of Saturday but that day is usually my time out with everyone as we tend to plan for that particular night. No plans were concrete as Lyssa and I were talking Tuesday night but I knew that I was most definitely going out with my friends. Lyssa told me that Saturday would have been the best night for her as she had no plans but because I had plans Lyssa started to get shitty.

Friday night sounded like the best night to me considering Lyssa’s mum was going to be out until late Saturday and her brother would most probably stay at Carleigh’s house. However since Lyssa is going out on Friday night to her party that isn’t a plan so the next best thing but farther away was the suggestion of Sunday since it is a pretty safe day for the both of us. Lyssa seemed rather angry that I wouldn’t give up a night out with my friends to spend with her (Keep in mind she still is my ex girlfriend and to her friends come first).

“You always get your way” Lyssa colorfully added in her conversation. Lyssa seems to think that a lot when we have squabbles, I seem to get my way. That is mostly the case but in defense I have to say that most of the time I should get my way because I always argue for a proper point.

Sunday Becomes A Tradition

This coming Sunday night was our best option but considering Lyssa’s resentfulness to the fact that I always get my own way and probably would again for this weekend she informed me that Sunday wasn’t a good day for her. Lyssa told me she didn’t want to give up Sunday night because she always goes out with Ali and Penelope for that night.

That angered me and what angered me more was when I asked “Is your Sunday night with Penelope and Ali a tradition now is it”. Lyssa seemed to agree with my question and that angered me so much that I uttered “Seeming I’m always out with my friends on Saturday and you have a tradition going on Sunday with Ali and Penelope I guess we’ll never be able to agree on any weekend from this point on”. Looking back in retrospect you will find that Lyssa and I spend most Sunday night’s together preferred over any other nights but the reason she stepped up her plans with Ali and Penelope was so that I couldn’t get my way.

Best Friends With Penelope

Asking Lyssa if Ali was now her best friend she paused for a couple of seconds and responded with “Ali and Penelope decided a little while ago that they were both now my best friends”. Penelope was the one to say that to Lyssa a couple of weeks ago and when I heard those hurtful words from Lyssa’s mouth I sat in awe, wondering how such fiendish act could have been allowed to take place. It is now certain, Lyssa spends way too much time around Penelope and she’s beginning to be known to me as ‘Penelope’s shadow’.

Tendency is still within Lyssa to defend Ali against me and that enraged me for the night. As my tension grew along with Lyssa’s continual defense of Ali and Penelope I knew that it would only be a matter of time until I flipped. Lyssa now does her ‘Pinky Swear’ with Ali which is pretty hurtful even though it is a playful thing but that’s the point. Lyssa had a bad feeling that Ali would lose his Celica when he bought his new car and she made him pinky swear that he wouldn’t drive crazy. Well, Ali obviously broke that promise and Lyssa is obviously another Nostradamus clairvoyant.

A Sharp Word About Ali

“What the fuck is Ali saying he’s your best friend for if he’s already driving around with that Stan guy always in his front seat” I queried. Ali was just fucking around now that I am out of the picture, how much times have I said it here in this Diary. Monday night while I was reading my Diary to Lyssa I told her of all the shit I had found in there. Informing Lyssa that I had been back in my Diary for the past few months I told her that I found a buildup of new friendship between Ali and Lyssa after I broke up with her.

I informed Lyssa that Ali had once told me that he fancied Lyssa but it was in Lyssa’s best interest not to believe me, maybe only until the last minutes of conversation. I told Lyssa my beliefs about Ali but all she seemed to do throughout the conversation was brush off my comments and treat them as ‘hear say’. Lyssa got beeped by another call and as I was asserting myself before she transferred the call she hung up the phone. Later Lyssa told me that she had done it by accident and I wasn’t told who she was talking to but it probably would have been Penelope.

Why She Will Not Come Back

Once back on the phone and talking again I had something in my mind through my time to think in serenity, this was my conclusion. “Take a step back from your current position and ask yourself ‘What are the reasons stopping me from getting back with Tony’”. Lyssa tried to tell me that it was due to the fact that I chiseled the thought of us parting our ways and finding other people into her head.

“You know why I think you don’t want to get back with me” I asked Lyssa. As Lyssa shouted out “What, it’s probably something I don’t want to know” I uttered “You won’t get back with me because Ali and Penelope will never welcome your decision”. If that were true which I think it is Lyssa feels much more respect for what Ali and Penelope believe than what her beliefs are of me.

Asking For One Small Change

All I asked of Lyssa as the night became thicker in argument was for Lyssa to become what she was to Ali before he became more of a friend to Lyssa and not behind my back because I was no longer going out with Lyssa. “I want you to stop being Ali’s best friend and just let him be Penelope’s boyfriend to you once again”. Lyssa didn’t want to make sense of what I was trying to ask of her but she was coming to in one department.

“You never done anything wrong by me after we broke up” Lyssa said to me and I know that Lyssa hasn’t done anything wrong to me since we broke up. The problem was Ali deciding to raid my previous life and drain away what he made a dying friendship with Lyssa. “Why did you stop being friends with Kieran and Channing” I questioned. “Because you didn’t like me hanging out with them so I stopped” Lyssa responded. “What is different in Ali’s case” I asked “I hate his guts but this time you can’t forget his friendship like you could long ago with Kieran and Channing”.

“It’s different now” informed Lyssa “you’re no longer going out with me”. As much as that was true I asked why Lyssa was still hanging around and coming over my house, why she wasn’t moving on. I asked Lyssa if she still loved me and as she said “Of course I do” I rested my case.

A Call Ends In Tears

Talking once again of the past and how Lyssa met Channing and Kieran while I was still working at my second job. That’s when we had our formal and as Lyssa started to stray slightly as she met with Kieran and the rest of them I quit my job. Half the reason I quit my job was so that I could spend more time with Lyssa and keep her from straying like I gathered she was doing. How different would it be today if I didn’t quit work and Lyssa had seen that time away from me as a time to be free and do what she felt.

If that happened our break up could have been Lyssa’s fault for the same reason we originally broke up, foul play. Lyssa tried telling me that my fight with Ali had nothing to do with her but I failed to differ. “It has everything to do with you” I proclaimed and with that Lyssa started to break out into tears and soon after she hung up the phone, her last words being “Listen I don’t have to hear this”.

Why Ali Always Fancied Her

Ever since the night we played strip poker at my house I have been more aware of Ali fancying Lyssa. From the case where Ali informed me in his own way that he lusted over Lyssa to the fact that Penelope could also see the connection between her boyfriend and Lyssa. That’s why Penelope tried to get them two to kiss that night and she even went as far as pretending to kiss me to make Ali jealous but they never did do anything out of anxiety.

In my recognition, from that moment on Ali has had the thought of kissing Lyssa looming in his subconscious mind and that’s the reason that after such a long wait to renounce my position, he became Lyssa’s best friend. To Ali that is the closest he will probably ever get to Lyssa so for him to have Lyssa recognize that he thinks he’s now her best friend is a great feat to his satisfaction. Ali’s dick getting in the way of his friendship towards me was the reason I hate him so much and he now is best friends with Lyssa.