A Heavy Chest Day And Heavier Guilt (Part 2) – Mad Chaos: November 28, 1998

Tears Over A Hung Up Phone

The time arrived to 10:30 a.m. remarkably I wasn’t that flustered when the phone rang. Knowing it would be Lyssa I said hello to her and once again she sounded somewhat depressed. I’m not really sure what the purpose of the call was but Lyssa informed me that she couldn’t go to her hair dressers how she was planning for the day because she had a squabble with Penelope.

From what I heard Penelope called her up to go out and as Lyssa told her she wasn’t up for the trip Penelope rudely hung up the phone. That made Lyssa cry and after that she gave me a call, we talked.

This was the conversation where Lyssa told me she wanted to spend the night over my house so after I go out with my friends, give her a call and if it’s not too late she would come over in a Taxi. That’s the plans that Lyssa made so not to ruin the plans for my night, I was happy with that but knew that I would probably get home late.

It’s been two or three weeks since I’ve gone out with my friends, since ‘Waves’ which was a fair while back and it’s time I went out again. With these thoughts now in my head I knew it would turn ugly later when I probably couldn’t have Lyssa over for Saturday night and it did happen.

Pressure Over Saturday Plans

After my workout I came back home and tried giving Lyssa a call but she was fast asleep so I too had myself some sleep for an hour before Lyssa gave me a call back. Once again Lyssa was upset but now she was also tired or talking as if woken up. Lyssa was once again content with our conversation but as she kept trying to push her coming over tonight before going out with my friends it made me feel undue pressure.

Sure Lyssa is upset and I know that she would feel much better if she came over my house to once again feel complete and forgiven but I can’t give up my night once again. Lyssa at first tried to sound like she respected the fact I was going out and she tried to understand it but through conversation she tried to put herself coming over as first priority. When I told Lyssa that I probably won’t be coming home until late but I could still call her to come over Lyssa told me not to worry and then started getting shitted.

The phone was silent for a fair while and that made it worse. Lyssa was being selfish to what she could have and I was beginning to feel that it was my fault she was angry and she wasn’t coming over, pressure. Lyssa then informed me almost breaking out into tears that everyone apart from her always seems to have plans and my comforting didn’t seem to work as the only way I could really comfort Lyssa (In her mind) was to forget about my planned night and invite her to my house.

Believe me, I really want her to come over tonight but I also want to go out with my friends and I don’t want them thinking that I’m once again spending all my weekends with Lyssa who by the way is my ex girlfriend. With the money I was going to spend on a nightclub to spare I was going to please Lyssa by buying a movie for our night together but of course I am going out. To be truthful I was hoping that plans would once again fall through tonight but I know that they won’t.

Plans Fall Apart Again

Now Lyssa is going out with Bielka even though she doesn’t want to but it’s better than staying home, something that I once again felt guilty about. If Lyssa went out with Bielka she would have to sleep at her house in North Sydney because Bielka wanted to get drunk and visit some nightclubs in the City which Lyssa wouldn’t be able to afford.

That means that Lyssa and I probably won’t be able to see each other for Sunday, go figure. Our conversation ended with some controversy when Lyssa received a call on the other line and she said “I’m going to hang up okay”. At first I thought she meant she was going to tell them to call back but Lyssa meant our conversation and after our goodbye’s she did.

Calling Around For Tonight

Now I await my night as I have called Keith and as he’s with everyone else at cricket now I gather we have plans for the night. Keith informed me that something is going on for the night regardless so that gives me some false sense of security. In a couple of minutes I’m going to give Tatton a call to see if he has plans for the night and then I’m going to call back Lyssa and see if she is definitely going out.

For now let me explain my time at the gym where I learnt today my real strength in Bench Press and already my Chest is aching. I’m going to have to buy some Creatine or something to keep my energy flowing through those sets, some bursts of energy will serve me great.

Chest Day At The Gym

Chest: Starting with my usual warm-up on the bike I began my normal routine without much of a warm-up. Bench Press was started with 80 pounds, I guess to warm up for 12 reps. Strenuous was I now to start stretching and after my lengthy stretch I placed 160 pounds on the bar against all my better judgment.

This time I willfully asked the spotter not to touch the bar as I completed my set and I found myself completing 5 reps on my own and then finishing up 9 reps with his assistance. Placing the weight back down to 80 pounds I performed 12 more reps almost to total failure. Next I tried to perform one more set on Smith Machine Bench Press with 120 pounds but I couldn’t even accomplish one full rep.

The weight was taken down but after completing 3 reps I didn’t consider that a whole set. Next was a set of dips where I performed 10 reps. Moving to Seated Machine Bench Press with 160 pounds I performed 5 reps. Placing that weight down to 140 pounds I performed 8 reps then dropping the weight to 100 pounds performed 4 more to exhaustion.

Three more sets were due and for my first I performed 10 reps with 120 pounds on Peck Deck Fly’s. Cable Crossovers was next with 40 pounds each side where I accomplished 10 reps. Lastly I performed pullovers after such a long extinction and with 60 pounds I done 10 reps.

Biceps And Abs

Biceps: This body-part was fairly different today where my first set was with Preacher Cable Curls with 30 pounds for 12 reps. Moving onto Standing Cable Curls with a top weight once again of 65 pounds I performed 8 reps then finished 2 more reps after a pause. Bicep Curls was next for the very first time with free weight and grabbing a 60 pound bar I performed 10 gut wrenching reps. Lastly I performed Preacher Cable Curls once more with 40 pounds for 10 reps.

Abdominals: The usual, three sets… The first two sets were with 30 pounds assistance for 30 reps and the last set was broken up. With 60 pounds assistance I created 20 reps from my depleting energy and after a pause completed 10 more reps.