Departing from the bank I made my way to the station with the thought still in my head that I would travel to Liverpool. If the ticket machine was open then I would travel there, if the ticket machine didn’t allow concession then I just wasn’t up for the travel and the hassle. Walking past the front of the station where the buses travel I noticed a couple of people sitting on the bench’s. There was this one girl with long wavy hair, red or brown or something. Her eyes were a weird sort, scary but attractive to the rest of her figure and those thoughts of attraction would have stayed in my mind if she didn’t start whistling like a houso from Airds. While I walked past her she looked me over and as I was walking away from her she mouthed “Hey, you got a nice set of cheeks on ya.” I’m not sure whether I should have taken that for a compliment, well I did but didn’t let her know.
Breezing past the ticket machine I noticed that it didn’t allow concession and my journey was over. Not wishing to walk past the freak again I sat down on the benches overlooking platform 3. While there I heard two girls from the entrance speaking loud enough for a fair bit of people to hear their foul mouths. They were speaking to a girl from across the platforms that they thought was a slut and the rest of it. This blonde girl sat there with her boyfriend trying to avoid the girls which I found out were well known Aboriginals from Campbelltown, well known as friends of Sutton and both trouble makers as you can tell. After this little event that took place for my ears to hear I made my way into the heart of Campbelltown away from the freak but still able to hear one last whistle from her skewed lips.
There was not much left to do in Campbelltown but walk around and plan what to buy. Making my way to the mall I was thinking of buying those board shorts for the beach but walking past them I thought against it. After all, how long is it going to be until Jett gets sick of Min-Su for one week and opts to go out with his friend to the beach, it could be months. When I was going out with Lyssa it took me a couple of months to phase away from my friends, Jett is doing it within a week, not even that. Is it love or is it obsession, that’s what I want to know, maybe a bit of both. Oh yeah, I did visit the link and peruse some probable jobs but the damn printer wasn’t working on the two touch screens I tried and the third one wouldn’t even work. Everyone else was on a computer and not being the one to stand around and wait I made my way out of there. On my way home after a brisk stroll around Campbelltown I noticed Jaromir working on the opposite side of the street where Pizza Hut is. From as long as I know Jaromir’s been working on that building, renovating since the start of this year or more. Making my way to the crossing I sat there and glanced on the outside of the second story where I noticed Jaromir. Waving to him and smiling I waited until it was time to walk across the street and waved him once again goodbye. Prosperous that could have been if I approached him and talked of Diamond but I wouldn’t do that to the boy, he was busy.
Making my way home I stopped off at Bradbury shops where I bought an array of items. Making my way into the supermarket I took a small gamble with MacLean’s whitening toothpaste. Also, I bought two liters of orange and mango juice. From there I bought myself a copy of FHM and having enough money bought myself some fish and chips. Not having eaten yet I took that all home and enjoyed my breakfast in the middle of the day. That food was for the Gym that I was about to attend in an hours time. That would have been enough time to let my food digest and spurt carbohydrates and protein throughout my body. FHM had a poster in it of 8 hot Australian babes, I had no problems placing that on my wall bellow Warren G and opposing Jenny McCarthy.
Feeling the need to listen to ‘I Believe I Can Fly’ by ‘R. Kelly’ I realized that it was only on the CD that I gave to Jewell. Even though I had to get the past of the lost years out to sustain my desire to hear that song I minutely thought about Jewell. Actually I didn’t think about her at all and I definitely wasn’t remorseful for what had become of the two of us. Rather, when the second song ‘Travel Around The Seven Seas’ by ‘Babyface’ came up (A song that I also hadn’t heard since giving Jewell the CD) I was dazed by the wording. To be truthful about my first CD, not much of the wording made sense to how I was feeling. The first song, ‘Can We Talk’ and the lyrics within didn’t make sense to what that day was like, it only brushed upon my feelings with a couple of words. The second song didn’t imply anything about a kiss, just how I would do so much for her. The third song actually had some meaning towards it ‘Nobody’ but that’s the only song along with ‘Hard To Say I’m Sorry’ that vaguely meant something from my heart.
That CD was exploration for my mind, a new barrier broken but it was also a mistake. But, the real mistake was my mislead mind for all that time during my relationship with Lyssa and when all was undone, I regretted sending a second CD the most. If I never had thoughts about a second CD and didn’t work upon it while I was going out with Lyssa then I probably wouldn’t have taken it further than conversation on the phone. Alas, Jewell did persist in confusing my mind, feeding me hope from being so subdued with her wording. The tangle that came after, all my fault and I got what I deserved neither Lyssa or Jewell. How much times have I thought what would have been if Lyssa and I didn’t break up, if I was stronger against my lust for Jewell. But in all that thought, in all those times I always knew that Lyssa and I, regardless of our situation would always break up in the future. Our break up was evident, it had to happen one day but so suddenly. My hopes were that Lyssa and I would at least be with each other until the turn of this century, now I just hope we will be on speaking terms until that time arrives. Oh the woe, the pitiful woe, how stupid ‘twas to become thy foe. An enemy to honesty, a companion to lust, brought forth an adversary to love with thy confusion mine leading drive. Wot that what shalt become of fantasy is naught and begot of reality shalt be the victor of the two.
Let me now speak of my Gym workout. An hour after I ate I grabbed a towel, turned off my CD player and made my way to the Gym. Once again I noticed Tarina there (test-tube) climbing her way to nowhere on the stair-climber. She wasn’t noticed until I was making my way down the stairs to the Gym and as I looked in her direction she wasn’t paying attention to me but I know she had seen me. My ponytail was up but that didn’t make it hard to produce a good workout, here’s the schedule…
Chest: Yep, we had ourselves a warm-up on the bike and trying in some degree to mimic last weeks performance I had a strenuous warming up. Stretching my arms I felt a bit tight so I done three warm up sets similar to last workout. First I jumped onto Peck Deck and with 40 pounds slowly performed 15 reps. Putting the weight down to 30 pounds I done 15 more reps and still feeling the necessity of a warm-up I jumped across a bench and performed 15 reps of pullovers with 30 pounds.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
