Kieran and Bielka Gossip
Kieran would have probably said something like “You know her, the girl we went to the ‘Dungeon’ with” and that explains why he wanted to see a picture of my girlfriend. Apparently Bielka is supposedly going out with Kieran and has been for at least a year. From what Lyssa always told me and believed herself Bielka is only living with him and she insists that they’re not going out.
Apparently Bielka is supposed to be very horny in bed, she takes it up the ass and she can’t get enough of it, that sort of shit. Ace said that Kieran can’t keep up with her and one night he asked Ace to fuck her for one night to get her off his back but he turned it down. Two hours later Bielka called him up asking him to drive over so they could just talk.
Ace and the Car Gossip
Apparently when Lyssa and I were going out Penelope and Lyssa used to stop and talk to Ace when he was working at Mobil so Lyssa can’t tell me that she doesn’t know who he is. Keith was there one of the times and he left before they started talking because he didn’t want to be around Penelope, he just dislikes her for some reason. Although, he told me that Lyssa didn’t talk to him that much at all, she just listened but that could be because she was nervous or something.
Keith noted that Ace doesn’t really like Kieran but the only reason he likes him right now is because that’s who is buying his car. Lyssa told me she doesn’t like Ace’s car but she told me she doesn’t really know who drives it. Bielka got Kieran a loan recently for $11,000 so Kieran could buy Ace’s car plus give him a $4,000 car on top of that. Is Bielka stupid or what, who in their right mind would do something like that.
As Keith and I got more in depth about the topic I started to get worried that the reason Ace was keeping it to himself was because it had something to do with Lyssa. I’d love to think it was because Kieran just doesn’t like me but as you will read a little later in this entry (Which I have already written) there is more than meets the eye to this whole dilemma that could change my perception on Lyssa for the rest of my life.
When Keith and the rest of us were at Liverpool RSL the guys that Ace went to dance with were Channing, Kieran and this guy named Calder. Looking at them I knew they looked familiar to my eye but I just couldn’t make out who they were. If I had seen Kieran I would have smacked the cunt out knowing all the things I do now. That’s the whole story about what we talked of in Keith’s car on the way to Buck’s house but let me now get more in depth with the past just after this last paragraph.
At Buck’s house, Ralf, Shawn, Tatton, Keith and I were just lounging around. Nothing was done there except for read magazines, watch fuzzy television, play the computer and worry about Lyssa and what Ace had said. The night lasted an hour or two and on the way home Tatton had a drive and was swerving all over the road but he was doing fine. Coming home I gave Keith the copy of the tape that was left to record and I still have the video players here so naturally I am making myself a copy. Now that I’ve spoken of the rest of the night let me now speak of my past Diary entries.
Back Through the Diary
Now that I’ve had a chance to go back in time and read upon the days that Lyssa used to go out with Channing and Kieran I can tell you I started to get more and more pissed off. How can I be so naïve and have no common sense when it comes to believing Lyssa. All those times that Lyssa was going out with Channing, Kieran, Miroslav and the other beautiful guys happened after we had a fight.
Lyssa told me she’s known them for a while but let me tell you how my suspicions today started. The first history of Channing or Kieran I could find was the day that Lyssa, Penelope, Bielka and Kieran met up with all the guys to visit the ‘Dungeon’. Lyssa was being very cold to me over the phone and she was distancing herself, something she never did. Let’s just say that Lyssa had feelings for one of the guys, what she had done to me would explain her actions, Lyssa liking one of the guys.
It’s obvious by how Lyssa treated me for the next couple of days that she liked one of them. Some evidence, Lyssa had a fight with me on Sunday night because she read my Diary for the first time and didn’t like what was written in there at all. That was the start of our fight and it lasted for a couple of days but it wasn’t all because of that.
The Pizza Run Lie
The very next night Lyssa went out with people I never heard of before, Channing and Kieran who was seeing Bielka or she liked him. That was the night that Ali got heaps pissed off with Penelope because they were driving to Bondi to get some Pizza with only the girls in the car, no other plans. What Ali and I couldn’t figure out was why couldn’t they just buy a Pizza in Campbelltown instead of traveling all the way to Bondi.
As it turns out they had other plans and they lied to us by meeting up with Kieran, Channing (Who is a male model) and some other guys. Lyssa told me that night that Channing was gay but tonight I learnt that Channing was indeed Bi-Sexual and he could have been one of the guys that Lyssa wanted that night. Lyssa was definitely giving me the cold shoulder because she was thinking about another guy and the fact that we had spaced ourselves because of a petty fight gave her enough space to do what she had done, lie to me.
That night was dispelled from my mind as I gathered Lyssa was truthful with me and she didn’t go out because she liked one of the guys despite my continually asking her. Here’s something else I forgot to mention. The night Lyssa went out with the girls and Kieran I was heading home from work and while I still had my mobile phone back then Lyssa gave me a call and informed me that she won’t be able to talk to me for the whole day.
The reason she told me was that she was going out to a Restaurant with Penelope and the rest of them, she didn’t use Kieran’s name at all. Lyssa called me because I was on the bus and she knew that I wouldn’t want to speak for that long, shifty. The conversation only got worse and worse because Lyssa allowed that to happen. The only person that night that had a mobile phone was Bielka and it was new, we didn’t know her number.
Ali had to call Bielka’s mum so we could get her number and speak to her, Ali was just as curious as me to know where Penelope was because he wasn’t told. Ali pretended to be someone else and he got everyone in the car angry but Lyssa was the most pissed off. Ali told me that this was the first time he’s ever heard Lyssa go off, she went off at Ali.
Cold Shoulders
Lyssa must have really had some hate for me but that hate was helped because she probably liked someone else and those couple of days without me was sort of like brushing me off. The very next day after she came back from the ‘Dungeon’ and her night out I visited Lyssa at her house hopeful to sort out our differences but Lyssa wouldn’t allow it.
For some reason Lyssa wanted to drag on the hatred and as I tried to give her a kiss she turned away. That now makes me realize part of the reason Lyssa had done that. If Lyssa liked one of the guys the night before of course she’s going to create distance between the both of us, she had a fascination for another guy.
The second day after the ‘Dungeon which was Wednesday (I think) I once again visited Lyssa at her house and now we were alright again. That night we headed to Velda’s house to view some pictures and something tells me that Lyssa knew Kieran and Channing would show up with Bielka that day. When they did we were out the front and Lyssa walked over to their car and had a talk to them.
That pissed me off because when I looked over Lyssa was talking to Kieran in the front seat and she looked like she was flirting with him, smiling and bending over. From where I was looking I could see her bra as her top was hanging low and I gathered that Kieran and Channing could also see it. Luckily I finished working a couple of days later because I feel things could have taken a turn for the worse out of Lyssa if my presumptions are true.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
