Gym Day and Another Cockroach (Part 4) – Mad Chaos: March 8, 1999

A New Skipping Plan

Friday night or Saturday night I didn’t skip but I’ve worked out a tell tale strategy to keeping my skipping alive. It’s hard on the feet and hard all round to keep skipping daily, it wears you out. Thus, I’ve devised a plan to skip four times a week of at least 1000 reps per session. These days will hopefully be on my rest days and on one or two of these sessions I will also partially work the abdominals with some crunches.

Tonight I will try to complete 2000 reps and since the time is already 4:15 a.m. I might have to do it soon. This program I will keep running until the end of this month where I will hope for a better result around my waist. Lately I’ve noted that my body is looking much better, much bulkier and more intact. My Chest is now coming out and when I flex my abdominal muscles along with the rest of my body I look large.

My body is starting to form upper body shape and my most favored but loathed body part to train to date is my back. When I do a double biceps flex my back muscles pop out a couple of centimeters all over and it is defined. My body is truly coming along and it’s just been around six or so months at the Gym. Let us hope that my money problems in the not too far future will not flounder my chances of bodybuilding status in the future.

Gossip About Dina

Just a couple of notable points before I begin upon my Saturday and Saturday night events. From word of someone’s mouth (I think it was Keith) I heard that Imad’s Dina from their past relationship is now seeing Wolfe from Pizza Hut. I’m pretty sure I wrote about Rory’s house party about three years ago where some guy had sex with a girl in a room and practically raped her drunk ass but if I didn’t, this is the sleaze that Dina is fucking now. Imad hates Wolfe and I don’t think he would be too happy at this turn of current events, nope, he wouldn’t.

Where My Confidence Went

Another point I would like to add is constantly brought to my attention and I usually speak of it. Confidence to me has to be gained to be attained and these days after Lyssa I have lost all my confidence of myself when it comes to women. Back in the day I used to be able to draw heaps of women into my talkative works and I used to have an abundance of confidence but now it has all vanished with my title of boyfriend.

I’ve said before that my going out with Lyssa and settling down was the downturn of my confidence because it has been so long since I’ve tried cracking onto someone that I’ve lost all my faith in myself. I remember when I was just meeting Penelope, Lyssa and all her friends and that one time that I had Penelope and all her friends pose for my camera up at Woodbine Macdonald’s.

That was truly the epitaph of my confidence that once lived well within me but now can only be reminisced upon by this inscription of who I was. That was truly a great day for my confidence being boosted and great confidence asks like this I cannot even fathom now. Nowadays I’m so scared of women and being knocked back that I can’t even look in a woman’s direction that I like, I’m too shy. From the extrovert to the introvert in one fail swoop.

Falling in love with someone takes away a lot of that confidence as you don’t need to use it anymore. When the day comes to fall in love again it will be made all the harder depending on the aging of the last loving relationship which decreases confidence with each passing day. Now that I want to fall in love again it’s made all the harder because I know how to love (Which I didn’t know before) but I’ve forgotten the part before that. If only I could fall straight into love without worrying about the schematics but that day will never come.

Dragging Myself to the Gym

The time that I woke up on Saturday now would have been around 1:00 p.m. On Friday night I was told by Ralf that he would be picking me up to head to Tamsen’s party so I had that in my mind as I was getting ready to head to the Gym. Thoughts on the Gym were flagrantly unwanted but despite my not really feeling up to par for heading to the Gym I prepared.

Maybe it’s because the negative cycle of my physical aspect has just kicked in but I was feeling a little over-trained. As usual I decided to stick to the weights I knew instead of going down a pin or two and this made me feel more over-trained as I didn’t want to be there. At one stage I was thinking of heading home early but I knew I had to stick it out where one day I would fix up my sinking routine and add a spark of life back into my workouts. The Gym started at 4:30 p.m. for me, I might as well add it now.

Chest Day

Chest: Beginning with a two minute warm-up on the bikes I walked over to do three warm-up sets for the Chest. Once they were done and with some stretches I still felt a little lagging but I started on my first heavy set. Bench Press was loaded with my high 170 pounds and getting a spot I accomplished 6 reps and then was helped to 10 reps.

Next was Machine Seated Bench Press and now a little warmed up I pushed 180 pounds 10 times. Moving to Peck Deck Fly’s with 170 pounds I just managed to pull out 12 reps. Dips was succeeding the last set and with a small rest I completed 10 reps. Incline Dumbbell Press with a lowered 55 pounds per arm was next and for 10 reps I did push. Machine Seated Bench Press with 160 pounds ensued and for 10 reps I did complete again. Cable Crossovers was last and with 60 pounds I began to complete 12 reps. Taking the weight up to 70 pounds I bent over and with a new high weight completed 12 reps.

Biceps and Abdominals

Biceps: Beginning after a warm-up I started on Preacher Cable Curls and with 60 pounds and a closer grip I completed 10 exhausting reps. Continuing on with Alternate Dumbbell Curls I picked up a new 40 pounds per hand and completed 6 reps before conking and then finishing another 4 reps with a pause.

From here I moved to Preacher Dumbbell Curl and taking a hand at a time with 35 pounds I completed 10 reps. Lastly I started on Concentration Curls and with 30 pounds I finished off with 12 reps. Just a quick note. Concentration Curls have really been helping me in putting that peak into my Biceps. My arm is getting larger in girth and better in look.

Abdominals: To be short, three sets of 30 reps with 60 pounds resistance were used. A pause here, a pause there and I was finished.

Lyssa Throwing Up

Now getting to the rest of Saturday, I got home around 5:30 p.m. and when I did I decided to give Lyssa a call. Earlier in the day an hour after waking up I also decided to give Lyssa a call and her answering the phone all groggy did surprise me. Lyssa was really sick when I called her in the afternoon as she informed me in her voice above a whisper (And sounding debilitated) that she had thrown up three times in that day.

It started after Lyssa got back home from the Catholic Club and the symptoms came when she was about to get to sleep. When Lyssa woke up she felt like shit and anything she tried to eat or drink would come straight back up. When I was talking to Lyssa she was sitting on the bathroom floor blowing her nose with toilet paper and using the toilet as a paper bag.

When I called Lyssa the second time she had just been sleeping but her throwing up was still evident. In this conversation Lyssa told me how she was going out to dinner for the night with Nikita and Constantine. Neither of us mentioned not calling each other for the last two nights but we asked each other what we had done and I told Lyssa about my shit night at Meridian. Lyssa had never heard of Meridian before and last week she went to Carmen’s so it goes to show how much I take things in. Our conversation however didn’t last too great a length on Saturday afternoon because I had to get ready and so did she.

The Cockroach Count

Now this is all I will comment on about Saturday night but just speaking of tonight I have to mention that another cockroach was killed and flushed down the toilet. My usual killings now consist of taking the toilet roll and slapping them around on the floor until they are dazed. When this happens I hit them once more, scoop them into the toilet roll and then flush them in the toilet.

I’m not sure what the count is now but I think a couple of days ago I forgot to add another cockroach that I killed so here I will now. Each day I kill one another breeds and comes back to haunt me. Now my night at Tamsen’s party started at around 8:00 p.m. because Ralf once again took his time but since I am getting sleepy now at 5:45 a.m. I will get some sleep. Before I go let me just add that I completed 1250 skips tonight and that there is one more day left until my three year anniversary of ceaseless literature and I know that there will easily be three years more…