Chips And Television
Lyssa and I started watching television for a while when we came back home. Our chips were devoured while we were watching television and as we then turned the light off I thought it would be best to make a move early rather than wait hours playing footsies. Lyssa wanted it, I wanted it, we both knew that we wanted it, I sought to get it. Turning Lyssa around as she lay facing the television I placed my arm under her head and embracing her within my arms we kissed, once on the lips.
Lyssa turned around once again to watch television but seconds later she turned around once again to kiss and kiss again upon my lips that were pleased for the attention. These kisses that once in our relationship had almost ceased in love making had once again come back in a flourish for our night of passion.
My kissing technique was on my mind and that also put me off somewhat as my tongue flirted upon the innards of Lyssa’s mouth. It must have felt awkward to have my tongue doing it’s dance in Lyssa’s mouth but considering Lyssa had a little giggle as our lips were locked I gathered that my conscious kissing was noticed.
Placing myself between Lyssa’s legs while lying beside her we once again locked lips as our hands moved around in a flurry manipulating the bed that we lay upon. Picking myself off Lyssa for a second I began with taking her pants off and instead of keeping Lyssa occupied in some way like I usually do when taking off her articles of clothing I decided to attend my thoughts to the situation at hand.
Lyssa lay there with a smile and curious as we took off her pants and then haggled over the rest of her clothes we stripped her practically bare. It took me rubbing myself over Lyssa’s body for her to finally reveal her whole body to me, taking off her panties.
A Night Of Passion
All was now revealed, bare to the world, our door locked by a flimsy chain that left no hindrance to peeping observers. Lyssa and I began our task and as Lyssa sat on top of me I began to kiss and manipulate the breasts that were so forwardly apparent in front of my face. Grasping my Chest in her bare hands she began slowly and slowly she continued until adrenaline started kicking in.
Lyssa pleased me by kissing my Chest and upon my neck which gave me all the reason to get excited. Lyssa asked that I swap over so she could be on bottom so I happily accepted and began my quest once again. Grabbing Lyssa from underneath her buttocks I lifted her slightly angled into the air and began my adventure and passion driven momentum.
It wasn’t long before I took myself out with a scare that I might go off and as I clamped myself in my hand to take that feeling away I placed myself back within Lyssa. Slowly we worked our way back into our groove and I held my legs close together so that I would be able to last somewhat longer but it was only a short while later when I started to once again feel an eruption.
Just before this Lyssa told me it felt so great and she also added “Don’t go off please, it feels so good”. This made me nervous because I certainly wanted Lyssa to go off before me and that way I could have the greatest orgasm I have ever felt.
An Awkward Ending
Taking myself out from within Lyssa when I felt as if I was going to release for the second time I placed myself very firmly on the top bone of Lyssa’s vagina to stop the pulsing inside my shaft. That did stop the sensation but I knew that something had been released and as Lyssa and I both looked down to check the scenario I released my shaft from the firm grip it had taken upon Lyssa.
To our surprise I started releasing fluid periodically over Lyssa’s belly and as she usually does she got scared that I got myself inside of her, no chance. That really dampens our nights, when Lyssa thinks that I got some of me in her when I know I didn’t.
What also bothers me is that Lyssa tells me of all these people she knows that have been having unprotected sex on the pill and they came inside of each other without a scare of pregnancy. Then there’s the case of one of Lyssa’s friends who have been having sex for two years with no birth control and they also release inside of each other but still no baby scare.
I told Lyssa it would have been a great feeling if I ever got to go off in her and then she basically told me that she would have been too scared allowing anything in her despite all the evidence.
Lyssa was probably disappointed when I had gone off unexpectedly and only after about ten minutes of sex. That to me was embarrassing to have lasted that long, I can’t think of much times before this that I’ve lasted so short a time. Straight after that I made Lyssa go off in a big way as I usually do with my tongue, it didn’t take that long.
The area where I was using my tongue had become so ticklish for Lyssa in her last seconds of climax that she had to remove my tongue and finish herself off with her more subtle fingers. This is the first time I had seen Lyssa use her fingers so readily after an oral orgasm, it wasn’t the last.
Sulking On The Floor
Lyssa asked to hug me and as I did she noticed something wrong with me by the way my face showed signs of sulking. Informing Lyssa that I was unhappy with my performance she tried to make me feel better. Sitting on the floor I just stared blankly upon the television screen and the floor thinking that the past couple of weeks have brought no real enjoyment to sex.
Rather they only brought me pressure to perform where I would rather hold myself in and suffer the empty consequence so Lyssa could orgasm. Lyssa gave me a massage and backrub to make me feel better, it done a bit of wonders.
Pity Is Not Love
Lyssa and I went outside so she could have a smoke and as I had my arms crossed because I was depressed and so I could keep warmer under the night sky Lyssa once again could sense something wrong.
I could sense Lyssa was conjuring some type of thought, some type of conclusion and when she said “If you wash yourself I’ll go down on you” I told her “No” and shook my head in disapproval almost instantly. Like I had noted before and had informed Lyssa, I feel that Lyssa will go down on me when she once again feels love for me, not when she feels sorry for me.
I wanted so much to get oral from Lyssa’s mouth once again but the problem was I didn’t want it out of pity and I didn’t want Lyssa to give it to me only once. Oral sex was a quick fix for Lyssa because she knew I would benefit but my problem was poor self esteem not wanting a blow job.
Anyway, I knew Lyssa didn’t want to go down on me, it was her quick fix. Later in the night I was hoping that Lyssa would just go down on me out of the blue anyway or at least help me go off and she tried that but once again I was too quick and held it in.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
